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Post by Charlie Cross on Aug 3, 2010 12:29:52 GMT -5
She felt him pull back and that was when she whimpered and pulled away, jerking out of his arms and crawling away until she could rise to stand.
Tears flowing down her face she would crawl back onto the bed, using the covers to hide her from sight as she whimpered and hid her face into a pillow.
Soft, choked sobs continued to escape, her hand trailing over her body, trying to find the flaw. It had to be there, some reason he didnt want her.....
As more and more tears fell she finally managed to choke out a single reply to him.
"Don't worry....I wont....wont repulse you by.....yet again trying to be with you.It was stupid to think you would want such a thing with a girl like me."
Whimpering once more she would bite her lip and keep the blanket over her head.
She just thought maybe........maybe he would want her, something....anything......But instead he had pushed her away.
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Post by Mekiel Echigo on Aug 3, 2010 12:36:30 GMT -5
[/b][/color] He'd wrap his arms around her again and pull her in close, but he'd try to refrain from the kissing and whatnot for now. Every time he did something, it seemed as if things were going to happen sooner than they were meant to, and that would more than likely tear the two apart. He didn't want that, but it seemed it was happening regardless. "Baby.. You're beautiful."[/ul][/color] |
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Post by Charlie Cross on Aug 3, 2010 12:42:55 GMT -5
She looked up at him and shook her head, tears still spilling down her face as she whimpered.
"I told you I would wait.........I meant that...but every time I kiss you....just....trying to be passionate with you in some way other than sex....you push me away. I know we cant have sex right now, and that is fine........But I feel like...maybe....I am just not good enough for you to want to fool around with in any other way...."
She sighed and closed her eyes, her hand running over herself once more, subconciously seeking out flaws in herself.
"I wont try anymore.....I just thought....I dont know.....I will get dressed in a bit and leave....go buy me some more stuff and just...go back to how things were......Then I wont be such a burden to you.....You probably would like the house back to yourself anyways and I promised I would just stick around for the night.....so not to bother you...."
She whimpered, turning her head and looking away as she sighed softly, her hands wanting so badly to touch him, but knowing that she could not...because they would just want more and he did not want that from her.......
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Post by Mekiel Echigo on Aug 3, 2010 12:51:33 GMT -5
[/b][/color] The thought of her leaving was, without a doubt, a fright. Less than one full day and everything would be back to how it was, living with no one, waking up to no one, cooking for no one. He didn't want it to be like that, not at all, but he felt he'd pushed her away one time too many and now, he'd get what was coming to him for it. "I don't want you to leave, I don't want things to go back to how they were. We haven't been together long, but damnit I've loved every second of it. Please, I don't want you to go." For the first time in a while, a tear found it's way to his cheek. He was being sincere. "I've pulled away because I thought I'd end up going too far, and I wouldn't forgive myself if I did."[/ul][/color] |
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Post by Charlie Cross on Aug 3, 2010 12:58:54 GMT -5
She reached up, brushing the tear away that she saw slide down his face as she laid there, trembling and then nodded softly.
"I dont want to leave.....But I dont know what to do anymore....I try to touch you, to show you how much I care....But you are scared.......I...I dont know how to ease that fear inside you..."
She shifted, leaning up and brushing her lips to his neck, then down his jawline and back up again until she neared his ear and whispered softly.
"Just.......trust me.....I just want to show you how deep my affection for you goes....and to be as close as I can with you...I wont let us go to far, I promise.....I just....I need you baby..."
Her lips brushed against his neck, her eyes closing as she breathed in his scent and ran her hand down his chest. She just wanted to be with him, not during sex....but yes, to feel the way he felt for her in his touch......To let him now how it felt to have somebody care about you and want you do muvh........
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Post by Mekiel Echigo on Aug 3, 2010 13:10:37 GMT -5
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Post by Charlie Cross on Aug 3, 2010 13:18:06 GMT -5
She tilted her head as she felt his lips trailing over her flesh. She wanted him, this was true, but she was not going to ruin this thing between them, not by rushing into sex....She just wanted to feel him, as best she could for now.
Slowly her hand would slide up under his shirt, her fingers tracing over the muscles of his chest and stomach as she let her tongue brush against his own, a little moan escaping into that kiss as she trembled to his touch, feeling herself pressed against him. Slowly her legs would shift, one brushing upon the inside of his thigh as she pulled away from the kiss and then trailed her own lips slowly down the side of of his jaw, to his neck.
Soft, heated breaths fell upon his flesh, shaky with each little exhale before she would whisper softly.
"I just......I just need to feel you.....I promise...I wont ruin this...............us......It means too much to me....I just....please...."
Her hand slid around to his back, nails lightly dragging up against his flesh. Not roughly, just in a very sensual, and pleasuring manner.
A soft whimper escaping her as she raised her other hand to run her fingers through his hair....always slow.....every touch, every kiss slow and passionate......
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Post by Mekiel Echigo on Aug 3, 2010 13:34:19 GMT -5
[/b][/color] His eyes would close and his hands would trail along her legs and waist, slowly rising beneath her -or, his- shirt. He'd kiss her neck gently, over and over. She felt simply amazing.. He wanted to take it all in. So, despite how close they already were, he'd pull her in tighter, running his right hand down her bare back. "God, you're beautiful.." he muttered, kissing her neck and her cheek. Still, he was careful not to go too far.. He was still weary of that.[/ul][/color] |
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Post by Charlie Cross on Aug 3, 2010 16:22:20 GMT -5
She continued to kiss down his neck, her hand sliding up his back as she brushed her soft thigh against the inside of his own. Those words he spoke would make her smile, a blush forming on her cheeks as she let him settle atop her.
Once more her lips pressed to his own, tongue slipping forth to brush against his as she let out a soft, delicate moan of pleasure. Just having his hands on her body was enough for her right now....
Slowly her other hand came down his neck, finally stopping when it came to rest on his chest and she laid back, those eyes shimmering in the light as she looked up at him, and ran her hand along the side of his face her thumb brushing over his lower lip ever so slowly.
"Do you want me to stop now?"
She could cease the kissing, the roaming of her hands....She would do as he wished.....she didnt want to push him or ruin what they had between them.....That was the last thing she ever wanted.
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Post by Mekiel Echigo on Aug 3, 2010 16:32:26 GMT -5
[/b][/color] He'd kiss her quickly on the lips and lean off to the side, waiting for her reply. In truth, he wanted to keep going, but if she felt it was done.. It was done. He'd lean in closely and rest his head next to hers, still smiling. His eyes seemed much more vibrant than usual.[/ul][/color] |
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Post by Charlie Cross on Aug 3, 2010 16:46:31 GMT -5
She shook her head as she turned onto her side, facing him and raising up on her elbows to brush her lip against his neck, her leg coming to shift in between his own, rubbing against him softly, slowly as she ran her hand down his side.
Slowly she found his hand, grasping his wrist and guiding his hand to her hip, pushing the shirt up so that his fingers came to rest against against the bare flesh of her thigh, just below the line of her underwear.
Slowly she slid his hand up, over her underwear and then to her bare side, trembling at the feel of his hand on her flesh.....Whimpering softly she would nuzzle into his neck and then kiss down along his jawline until she was looking at him once more....
"Feel me....like I feel you...."
She then pressed her lips to his tightly, passionately. Her tongue sliding against his as she closed her eyes and pressed into him, her thigh once more rubbing against him between his legs, just slightly....She just needed a bit more.....she just needed to be close to him........
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Post by Mekiel Echigo on Aug 5, 2010 2:46:24 GMT -5
[/b][/color] A peck - not, not like a chicken - and he'd massage her back the best he could in this position.[/ul][/color] |
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Post by Charlie Cross on Aug 5, 2010 9:28:03 GMT -5
She shivered softly as she felt his hand on her flesh, the motion of such making her whimper softly into that kiss. As his other hand became tangled within her hair, she pressed against him, kissing him with just as much passion as he gave to her in return.
Yet then he broke the kiss, and though that smile was there, genuine in appearance, she got the distinct feeling that there was something else......something lurking beneath the surface.
Slowly her hand came out, her own soft smile crossing her lips as she brushed her fingers along his cheek, her head tilting softly.
"It is real....all of it...."
She leaned down, kissing him once more, softly........
"What's the matter baby?"
Her brow raised curiously as she rested her forehead against his, those fingers affectionately caressing the side of his neck as she closed her eyes and simply rested there.....Listening......She could feel it, deep down inside.......that something was bothering him....she just didnt know what and hoped it was not her.....
Yet, the thought came to mind that it could be. Perhaps this was too much for him? Perhaps she was not enough? It was nerve racking but she was ready for anything....she just wanted to know what was eating away at him, creating this invisible wall that seemed to be held there between them.....Secrets were never good, especially at the start of what she thought was such a good relationship.
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Post by Mekiel Echigo on Aug 5, 2010 9:41:23 GMT -5
[/b][/color] The continued grin as he'd gone in for yet another kiss. It seemed that his smile was see through, though. She knew there was something wrong. Maybe it was the eyes? He didn't know. He'd look into her eyes and let out a sigh. "This is going to sound weird, but.." He paused. He didn't want to say it, but he didn't want to lie. He felt as if the whole world were tugging at his shoulders, trying to pull him down without mercy. He'd have to try to put this in a way that wouldn't seem bad. Heh. No one could really do that with this. "What would you do if.. If you found that someone close to you was a murderer..?" He'd suddenly pulled away just a bit. How would she react to this? Well, she'd likely catch on, and in the arms of a murderer one tended to fight or scream or.. Other things. He looked down with uncertain eyes for a moment, waiting for reality to hit him.[/ul][/color] |
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Post by Charlie Cross on Aug 5, 2010 10:08:50 GMT -5
Suddenly his entire mood seemed to shift.....he was nervous, and as she sat up a bit atop him, she tilted her head and chewed upon the lower corner of her lip.....Her hand soothingly caressing his chest as he struggled to find the words.......
Then there they were......and it was not hard to put the piece together.....
To be honest......it gave her pause.....a long moment of silence as she thought of the consequences of such.....Of laying in the arms of somebody who could take the life of another......
How many lives?
Why?
The questions came in a flood through her mind, and for a moment she looked down.....but then she caught a glimpse of him from the corner of her eye, saw the way he lowered his head.....No...she could not believe that he would so willingly kill somebody and feel no regret.......Perhaps it was a different time in his life? Perhaps they had deserved it?
But the real question, the one that needed answering right here and now........was simply this.........Was the man who had just held her through the night, kissed her so passionately, cared for her, and even made her breakfast, the same man who he spoke of?
Slowly her hand came up, little fingers resting under his chin as she tilted his head up so that his eyes could look at her once more. Leaps of faith....was that not what relationships were all about?
Well she was about to make a very very big one.....
Leaning down, she would tilt her head once more, those eyes focused on his as she used her free hand to reach out, taking his and pressing it against her bare thigh, feeling his touch as she slowly moved his hand down her soft, silken flesh........
"It is a part of you....One I hope you will tell me about.....so that I may fully understand.......But the man touching me...right here......right now...Is not that man......"
He was, sure....inside somewhere he was.......but yeah, the point was when he was with her he was not a murderer.....and that to her, was all that mattered....how he made her feel...how he treated her......
Slowly she would press her lips to his, kissing him once more as she closed her eyes and brushed her tongue gently against his lips pulling back to sigh softly.
"I trust you baby.........I want to be with you.....Nothing from your past will change that....."
Softly her hand brushed his cheek, again a soothing affectionate gesture.....Hoping that she had done the right thing....That he would understand......
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