Talk to me (Kev/Open)

[Jack]

Continued from here

Jack sat in the middle of a random quad that was off to the side, it was open with many entrances and exits, ideal for departure if conversation got to heated. It was isolated off to the side of the man establishment nothing too dramatic about it. Jack was sitting on a stone bench his I-pod in with the volume turned right down so he could hear if anyone was approaching. He let five minutes pass before he deemed that the surrounding area was empty enough. Pulling out his phone he typed in Kevala’s number having since deleted it, foolishly having seen no further use for it.

I’m waiting in the quad

Kevala would know what Jack was referring to this was his favorite place on campus it was off to the side, yet it had a presence. Quiet and dull yet at the same time it had an energy about it, it wasn’t big, in the terms of the other courtyards on campus but it was his little hang out spot.

It wouldn’t be long before the sound of Kevala’s footsteps reached his keen ears and the sway of those hips came into view and those eyes of hers pierced his once again.

[Ceraphine Davis]

As that text came in, Kevala would look at the words and then draw in a soft breath, her eyes running over the screen of her phone until the back light went out and left her staring at darkness once more. Sliding the phone shut, she would reach down and grab up her bag, sliding it onto her shoulder.

Today she was dressed in simple white dress with spaghetti straps and that only extended down to her mid thigh. Her long black hair was pulled partially back and all in all she had a very beautiful and intoxicating look to her.

Stepping out of the school and into the courtyard, she would look around at the students that moved from here to there. A little sigh escaping her as she felt the breeze wash over her delicate flesh.

She knew where he would be, the spot etched in her mind....Slowly she would make her way there, the rock of her hips slow and gentle as they swayed from side to side, those icy hues falling upon him as she entered the area.

Already she felt a slight tinge in her chest. To say she had not cared about him was a lie, but things had just gotten so, twisted she supposed.

Nearing him, she let those eyes meet his own, a little bite of her teeth to the corner of her lip as she slid her bag off her shoulder and let it hit the ground.

"I am glad you decided to actually try and talk. I was worried you wouldnt want anything to do with me honestly."

She laughed a bit nervously and then reached up to tuck a stray lock of hair back into place. Eyes never wavering from his own even as she moved to take a seat beside him.

[Jack]

And not long after that previous thought crossed his mind, did the sound of the little girl approaching him reach his ear, ripping his single head phone out Jack looked forward and then there she was. AS beautiful as ever and yet equally repulsive, maybe something about this place just made everything both positive and negative. The air grew tense as Jack removed his bag for her to have more room to sit down, moving to the side. She exchanged some quick words with Jack before she moved toward him. They nearly made him laugh, her Kevala worried, since when?

"I am glad you decided to actually try and talk. I was worried you wouldnt want anything to do with me honestly."

“And what in the world could possibly make you think that I, Jack O’Connor wouldn’t want anything to do with you?”

Jack would muse as his eyes followed hers as she took up his offer to sit down next to him. To be honest this was a rare opportunity to get into the head of Kevala Katashi something that wouldn’t come easily again. He would possibly gain answers to questions he had otherwise given up all hope of every knowing, but why did she choose the library to break their silence, was it just a convenient time is that only the extent his person was worth? Just a mere convenience, it was nothing to get worked up about yet it was not something to ignore or ride off. After all she was school captain she had various duties to perform, like keeping her social life on track or the student body under check. These all required her time and Jack was just a little bit lower on the list somewhere between read a book and go grab some lunch.. if he was there sure she would tick him off her list otherwise who cared?

[Ceraphine Davis]

As Kevala took her seat she could feel the way he felt toward her, and honestly she could not blame him. She had acted in such a horrible manner, all because she was unstable and could not keep herself from doing stupid shit all the time.

As she rested her hands on her bare knees she would run her fingers over the flesh there, her eyes trailing over them as they made little circles about.

"I am sorry for how I behaved. I know I should have said this sooner, but honestly I have been so disgusted with myself lately that I figure most other people are as well."

She shrugged once more and then finally cast him another nervous glance. She was not always the bitch that she came off to be, instead she was in fact a normal girl deep down, she just chose not to show it.

Biting her lower lip, she would offer a slight smile. It was all she could do right now. She did not know how he would take to her apology and honestly she just wanted to try and put the bad stuff behind her, or at least put them off to the side. But that all depended on him and his actions right now.

"I know how it came across, and well, I don't know what to say, I cannot change who I am, no matter how much I try."

She sighed and would turn her eyes away from him once more. Not able to keep the look held upon him because of her own regret over her behavior.

[Jack]

Jack’s eye brows perked up into the air as Kevala looked toward the floor, his deep voice echoing through the quad, they were completely alone this was nearly as calming as it were daunting. It was nice to be able to sit there with someone in silence, no need to speak to convey their feelings even if it were for all the wrong reasons. Jack let a small sigh escape his mouth as his eyes drifted from the far walls of the quad back to Kevala as her lips moved and the sound waves reached his ears. He would pause unmoving. His eyes drifted from hers as she stared off into the distance thinking over what he had just heard.

"I am sorry for how I behaved. I know I should have said this sooner, but honestly I have been so disgusted with myself lately that I figure most other people are as well."

“I accept your apology although there really is no need for you to do so. It’s your life and your job you get to choose how you live and what you do. So why are you apologizing for doing just that?”

Jack would stare back at her, she did what she felt right who was he to tell her who should be her pillars, or at what level they were supposed to be at, or even expect to be treated any differently. This was a cut throat world why would he expect anyone to act any different. If you were weak, you had no right to be with the strong and Jack was just a liability to whatever Kevala wanted. His removal from her life was necessary and who was Jack to fight against it. There was a weakness in Kevala that tainted everything she did, she tried to be cold and ruthless yet she didn’t have the stomach to deal with it. She was a kind person by nature where’s Jack was a kind person who chose to be evil. He didn’t care for human life nor did he give a shit about anyone outside his little box, he saw the greater picture but only in his terms. Jack knew his evil limitations he also knew what was smart business which is why he had built a resilience to abandonment. He understood that when a person made a decision they didn’t think about others first they thought about themselves.

"I know how it came across, and well, I don't know what to say, I cannot change who I am, no matter how much I try."

“How did it come across to you?”

Jack would snap back, careful to keep his feelings in check and his voice quiet and collect. Yet in the way his eyes flashed at her she would know that she had struck a chord. “Hmm? How would one in your position make sense of the series of events that lead up to my removal and what directly followed? Hmmm?”. Jack would ask as his eyes locked onto her body, whether or not she was looking at him his eyes would continue to bore deep into her.

[Ceraphine Davis]

She shrugged, not really sure what to say. She was weak in many ways, not something she ever denied, but she was also many other things that people constantly underestimated her for. But then that is what happened when people refused to see beyond the surface of who she really was.

"It came across as irrational and bitchy."

It was all she could really say, seeing as how she did not know how others had taken her words or what she had done. Especially him. She knew that in that moment she had slipped, the little bit of her that was still sane had gone on a vacation and left in its place the thing which was irrational and heated....dark....

She honestly did not know what else to say about it. She felt sorry for what she had done, only because of the relationship the two shared. Had it been anyone else she may not have apologized or even bothered to try and talk to them.

"I just, I like to think we may have had something and I feel a bit bad for fucking that up."

She shrugged once more, figuring that honesty was the best way to do this thing. If he didnt want to accept why she was the way she was then perhaps it was a good thing that they were not together still, yet she hoped he would somehow see the light when it came to her.

She was never one that could be organized and put into a set category...However everyone seemed to try and put her into one. It was frustrating to say the least and as much as she tried she could not break the cycle.

As her head turned, those icy hues would look up into his own, holding her gaze there as she bit softly on her lower lip. Content to sit there talking with him for as long as the two could keep a steady and calm pace to the conversation without it getting too heated.

[Jack]

OOC: Sorry a bit sloppy I'm extremely tired.

IC:

Jack was not foolish enough of a person to think the world was a sweet, nice, wonderful place. He knew it for what it really was he had seen the highest of the high and the lowest of the low, men, women, children even turned into animals, butchers killing the innocence he was even responsible for some of these mass killings. If there was one thing that Jack had done with Kevala it was accepted her, he accepted her for all her faults, all her down falls and all her perks, it was not something so trivial as a business deal no. He saw Kevala as an important person, a person of true value and of true worth. She was not someone to be taken lightly nor was she one to lose sleep over. She was just Kevala, that beautiful girl, with a evil side that made Jack’s blood boil, a cheeky side that made Jack chuckle as if her were a mere child and a neurotic side erotic side that made porn stars jealous. All in all she was perfect, her flaws were not hidden and she allowed others to feel at ease around her and let their flaws shine. In her presence beauty of all calibre seemed meaningless, in comparison no lips tasted so sweet, no body felt so good, no bite felt so gentle.

"It came across as irrational and bitchy."

“I am fully aware of your faults Kevala, I have come to know your tendencies even in the short period of time that I’ve known you. But what I didn’t know, what I didn’t expect was that you were so quick to give up on people. To give up on me... “

Jack’s face turned toward her, he stared into her eyes, the only reaming physical remnant of that night *breaking silence* was the pink scar that ran down his left eye, dramatically contrasted against his dark tanned skin.

"I just, I like to think we may have had something and I feel a bit bad for fucking that up."

“So what now? What do you want from me? If you’re here to figure out whether or not I forgive you, there’s no need because there’s nothing to forgive, there is no ill will between us Kevala. My only fault was not knowing you well enough, and our relationship was over before it started for that very reason. Anything else is irrelevant you’re the way you are and you’re imperfect, and it’s those imperfections which make you different from every other has been who strives to be perfect. It’s your imperfections which make you so irresistible Kevala and it’s those imperfections that makes you unique”

[Ceraphine Davis]

Kev listened, her eyes slowly dropping away from him for a moment as she thought over the words he spoke and nodded softly, a gentle bite offered to her lower lip as she finally gathered the nerve to look up toward him once more, her small hand extending upward so that her thumb could lightly trace over that scar which had not been there in their time together.

"How can you think me so perfect after what I have done to you?"

Slowly, with a bit of hesitation she drew her hand back, sure that her touch was not welcome upon him after all the wrongs she had committed.

"Sorry...."

She would then place her hands in her lap, fingers wrapping together as she drew in a soft, shakey breath. She honestly did not know what to think, what to say anymore. She was here for forgiveness, but a part of her wanted something more.

"You were the only one to ever embrace the darker side of myself.....I did not give up on you........I pushed you away before you could hurt me...."

She sighed, looking down at her hands and trying not to focus on the fact that she had simply done the same thing she did to everyone else that existed in her life. When they got too close, she pushed them away. She protected herself, and yet in the end, she always came out feeling guilty for such.

She did not understand why she was the way she was, but she knew that nothing would ever change that. She was a creature of habit, and everyone bent to her will at some point or another. She was on a path to destroy herself, and nothing she or anyone else did would save her.

No matter how much she wished it was possible.

Sure, there had been issues that both of them had suffered, ones which had given her something to use in order to push him away...But never had she really given up on him. She had known it was in him to grow and learn, but she had not given him that chance, because she feared what it could mean for herself.

She had been selfish, and honestly, Kevala hated being selfish.....She may have come across as such more often than not, but when all was said and done, she did it with the sole purpose of trying to help others in one way or another.

[Jack]

"How can you think me so perfect after what I have done to you?"

Jack would sigh maybe he hadn’t made himself clear, this tended to be the case with Kevala such an intelligent girl yet she could never see the obvious. “Maybe I should have rephrased it, You’re not perfect, in no shape way or form, but you’re perfect for me. Can’t you understand Kevala?” Jack would speak in a soft voice as his eye closed p her touch, feeling her thumb trace over the swore scar tissue, he thanked God for the speed at which Phoenix organized treatment for his wounds. In two years the scar on his face would have changed to a light shade even tanning to a similar pigmentation as the rest of his skin.

"Sorry...."

“No need”

Jack would respond quickly yet calmly, this environment placed him at ease, her presence only served to further this calmness he felt. "You were the only one to ever embrace the darker side of myself.....I did not give up on you........I pushed you away before you could hurt me....". Jack would smile it looks like they both first their firsts for something. “And you were the first person to ever trust me with such a position.” Jack would say in all honesty while he had been with those at the top he was never on equal par with them. Kevala was the first to trust him in such a position and possibly the last. “Kevala I will not pretend to understand you, doing so wouldn’t do someone of your intelligence justice. I don’t know what else you want for me, I’ve given you everything I can, I gave myself to you, to use as you wished, in your endever for this school. In return all I wished was your undivided loyalty and you tossed me aside like a stray dog. But that’s okay because I was yours to do with as you pleased. However Kevala, as much as I wish things could go back to the way they were they simply can’t this doesn’t mean we can’t be more or less it just means we can’t be the same as we were before. I will never try and tame you because let’s face it, it’s impossible you’re more free then you know it, so free in fact you need to create obstacles in your mind to stop yourself, but that’s fine. “

He would smile at his little recap of her alter egos, he much preferred his version.

“ If you want to have a relationship with me then let’s go for it, but sort out where we stand, I will not hold it against you for not having the same feelings for me nor will I expect you to have the same. But I will hold it against you if we’ve agreed on one thing and you do the other, to be told I hate being tied down, I just like to be free Kevala and so do you. If anything that’s why I like you, because when I’m with you I’m free. I know you have your own agenda we all do, I just hope you can find a place in that busy schedule of yours for your ex Vice so for that brief moment in our crazy lives we can feel like a normal human should... free.”

Jack would look at her, whenever they spoke it just seemed that it was he who lectured her.

[Ceraphine Davis]

Kevala turned back to look at him once more as he spoke. She had never really felt perfect for anyone but Mischa, and even then she constantly felt like she was letting the girl down and hurting her when she should have been trying to protect her.

Biting her lip nervously once more, she would slowly shift in her position, her small form moving about until she could easily crawl into his lap.

As her hand rose upward to brush against his neck she would sigh softly, looking up at him with those icy hues.

"I wish I could say you were wrong, that I could be tamed and controlled, but I cannot be. I feel like I cant breath when somebody tries to cage me in and hold me down....I just dont know how to deal with it, other than to act out, and push them away......"

Her hand trailed up to his cheek, her thumb lightly brushing against his flesh as she smiled softly and leaned in to press her lips briefly against his own.

"I wanna figure out where we stand. I want to try and have something with you......Other than an uneasy silence whenever we are in the same room. I just hope that you would want the same......"

She did not like the way she had handled the situation with him. She had been a bit harsh and judging and she had used him just as he said, casting him aside in such a horrible manner, that even she had felt bad about it later.

But she could not change the errors of her past, all she could do was grow from the mistakes she made and hope to piece together some type of life for herself.

She was still so conflicted about Mischa, about herself even....So putting herself in a steady position was not going to be easy, but she would try......at least somewhat......

Leaning in she would brush her lips against his neck, only to pull back and instead nuzzle into him. Always the affectionate little kitty, no matter how sharp the claws really were.

[Jack]

Kevala turned to look at him her icy hues locking onto his, his dark brown eyes stared at hers, a small smirk was printed across his face. Despite how she may feel the facts were there, he was a wolf, or to her he was more like a tiger, he could never be tamed for long periods of time and even when he did so it was because he chose so. He was the best type of servant or slave because he was one by choice, as long as there was benefit for him he would be with someone for as long as it took. Despite this overly used stereotype of Jack, once he set out on a mission he completed it until told otherwise, which was shy when she dismissed him despite his feelings for her, he didn’t resist nor did he pay her any attention. His duty had been completed and he had been dismissed. She would come to understand in time that it was this false ideology of his that prevented him from rampaging through the school until he drew her out so he could rip her throat out with the very teeth he so often sunk into her warm smooth flesh. As long as they both worked something practical out for now, they would be fine there would be no feelings of guilt involved only loyalty and trust. She moved toward him now, sitting in his lap, his hands caressed her body, taking in her familiar curves. The same curves which he had not so long ago dismissed, wanting nothing to do with the girl. As her hand rose upward to brush against his neck his keen eyes would keep a track on it, watching it as he rested on his cheek. Squishing the warm soft flesh that was there, feeling her soft hands against his stubble which was now threatening to turn into a nice little beard.

"I wish I could say you were wrong, that I could be tamed and controlled, but I cannot be. I feel like I can’t breath when somebody tries to cage me in and hold me down....I just dont know how to deal with it, other than to act out, and push them away......" Jack sighed as he looked down at her. “Why? Why do you wish you could be tamed? So you could be just like them? We cannot be tamed Kevala more so we cannot let ourselves be. You must work this out for yourself but this doesn’t mean you can’t commit to something it just means you must be careful with what and who you commit to.” Jack would stop speaking, knowing that his words were merely distracting them from something that both wanted all that much more, he couldn’t help his animalistic instincts, she was sitting directly in his lap, there would be no way to avoid it. Their lips met and Jack embraced her further, his delicate fingers moving over her body, finding themselves a nice comfortable location for both of them.

She broke from him, looking up at his face he gave off his best smile, it was hard to show emotions in these situations. He wasn’t sure what to feel but he just went with what felt natural, what felt normal. "I wanna figure out where we stand. I want to try and have something with you......Other than an uneasy silence whenever we are in the same room. I just hope that you would want the same......". He thought about what she said, and well he couldn’t help but feel the same way. “I do too Kev. I want to be with you, so let’s do it! Let’s be together, let’s be free together. I’m not expecting us to commit to a standard relationship, and I know there will most likely be other people you need to sort out, so sort it all out and then come back to me. I’m just asking two things of you babe, two small things, loyalty and commitment to our relationship. This is new to me, new to us. So let’s not rush it, just take it slow and if anymore problems arise or anymore annoying demons we’ll deal with them and move on. There are alternatives, when things get tough and you get scared, you don’t have to push me away babe. Just take some time off and trust me, talk to me. If things get too much for you just tell me, and we’ll make it better, we’ll free again, just don’t betray what I give you, no more than I would betray what you’ve given me.”

Jack was careful when choosing his words, Phoenix had taught him that when you wanted to make someone feel included you really had to emphasize those words like “we” or “we’ll”. Especially in relationships as it gives the other person the opinion that their partner cares about them and is working with or together with tem rather than next, against or in their own self interest. When carefully planned words and genuine feelings are mixed together you have yourself a speech that would make any woman week at the knees.

[Ceraphine Davis]

Kev felt his hands on her body, her eyes staying upon his own as she bit upon her lower lip and pressed her form against his own. She could not help but enjoy the way he felt under her touch, the way his scent filled her senses.

Intently she listened to each word he spoke, shrugging softly as she let out a soft little sigh.

"I dont know why I want to be like everyone else, but sometimes I do. I have always been cast aside for being what I am, and I have always put myself in such bad positions...I just wish to have more I suppose."

She would then lean in, her lips brushing against his jaw as she breathed in a deep whiff of his scent and closed her eyes. She had to admit she did miss it, even when in the back of her mind she had told herself she would not.

"I will try. It is the best I can do. I am still learning about everything when it comes to people actually accepting who I am, and I cannot promise I wont get nervous or try to push, but I will try to learn to talk about it instead of flipping out and doing something so rash."

Smiling once more she would laugh softly and offer a little bite to his neck. Nothing too harsh but just enough to let him know she was there. Hehe

"We have a lot of work cut out for us I think. But it will be interesting just the same."

She would then lay her head against his shoulder and run her hand slowly down his chest. It was comfortable being with him, even if it should not have been. She was just not sure she had it in her to be able to do what was wanted of her. She had a lot of strength but she was not anywhere near able to do everything. But that did not mean she could not give it her best.

"So now what do we do?"

A little grin on her lips as she nuzzled into him and curled up a bit more within his lap.

[Jack]

He could simply not believe the course of events, she literally dropped out of the sky, everything fell into place and on her mood swing he lost everything. Just as quickly, as he was recovering and rebuilding she swooped in and fucked his life up all over again. The result, proceed with care, he now understood a bit more about Kevala, this would only strengthen and shape their relationship into something productive and beneficial to them both.

"I dont know why I want to be like everyone else, but sometimes I do. I have always been cast aside for being what I am, and I have always put myself in such bad positions...I just wish to have more I suppose."

“I’ll give you all I can, if you still want more well then I can’t help that... you have me Kev... for all the little I’m worth, just don’t throw me away.”

That’s all he could really say, together they both benefitted greatly, Jack had an all and a friend. Not one that he could rely on as well as a few others but a friend none the less. Whether or not she would contribute in a positive way to his mental state or diminish it and force him to revoke back into his berserker ways.

"I will try. It is the best I can do. I am still learning about everything when it comes to people actually accepting who I am, and I cannot promise I wont get nervous or try to push, but I will try to learn to talk about it instead of flipping out and doing something so rash."

Jack’s arms now wrapped around her body, holding her there, she had found a comfortable position in his lap, Jack’s hands gripped her clothes as he pulled her closer into him, Looking directly into her eyes he would chuckle as he grinned. “You’re the school captain....learn fast!”. He would chuckle before pressing his lips against hers, not giving her time to respond to his cheekiness *even a word O.o?*

"We have a lot of work cut out for us I think. But it will be interesting just the same."

“Yes, yes we do, but it’s doable or why else would we be here?”

Jack would ask the obvious question, the fact that he had even accepted her request for a meeting was because he still had hope for her. She obviously had hope for him, he would take her trust and hope and he would forge it into something that worked, for the both of them.

"So now what do we do?"

She curled up further into his lap, he finally felt at ease, as if the great weight that had been her betrayal had been liberated from him. But he understood that, this was still a dangerous time, he was on the verge of pushing his plans forward and launching himself into a new life with new challenges and new goals. He saw no reason why he couldn’t have Kevala there, to be by his side as he moved on through this new life that he was building.

[Ceraphine Davis]

Kevala really did not know what to say anymore, she just felt so much better now that she had gotten all of this out of the way. She wanted to work on being better, not only for him but for herself.

She knew that she had the ability inside, it was just she sometimes forgot and got herself into more trouble than she could manage. Letting out a soft sigh she would brush her lips against his neck, her hand sliding slowly down his chest as she looked down at the scar that ran through the middle of her palm. Yet she pushed the thoughts aside and simply returned to nuzzling into him and pressing her body tightly against his own.

"I have missed you.....I hope you know that......No matter how much I tried to tell myself I didnt, I could not deny it..."

She then pulled back, her turn to press a kiss to his lips before he could really say anything. Well he had done it to her, so why could she not do it to him?

With a little sigh of contentment she would brush her tongue against his lips, a slow sample of that familiar taste before she would allow it to push forward, seeking out his own as her hand rose to caress his cheek softly.

A little moan let forth as she shifted about in his lap for a moment before pulling back and breaking that kiss.

Her smile seeming to light up her face as she looked at him with those shimmering blue eyes.

"I can only give you my best and nothing more.....If it is not enough for you, then I am not sure what I can do beyond that.....But I will try none the less...."

Her tone was soft and affectionate as she tilted her head and brushed her fingers over his neck, letting her nails lightly drag against his flesh........

[Jack]

"I have missed you.....I hope you know that......No matter how much I tried to tell myself I didnt, I could not deny it..."

“I mis...mmmm”

Before he could reply with the obvious answer she cut him off, his eyes widened briefly as he stared at her. Before joining hers and closing, thoroughly enjoying the taste of her lips as they both met, Jack would match little sigh of contentment as she brush her tongue against his lips, his own darting out to match hers. As his tongue retreated back into his mouth hers followed, pushing forward her tongue honed in onto his, entwining around each other. He pulled her into a tighter embrace. As her small hand reached his cheek Jack abandoned his tight grip on her, opting for the more casual hold around her waist, which allowed her more movement. She broke away shifting slightly in his lap, his hips couldn’t help but sway with her body, smirking as he chased her.

“I missed you too.”

He didn’t just miss his position he missed the way he felt when she stayed with him, the way he felt when he went to sleep next to her as she was there when he woke up. To be honest looking into their relationship you could only really say that it was a fling. Yet it was the building blocks of so much more, Jack was happy that at the very least he was about to salvage some bits of his relationship with Kevala.

. "I can only give you my best and nothing more.....If it is not enough for you, then I am not sure what I can do beyond that.....But I will try none the less...."

She teased him, lightly digging her fingers into his neck, tempting him, knowing full well how much he lusted for her.

“You know that’s all I ask, we’ll do this. Together.”