"I'm So Dead."

[Zen]

She noticed the way he did not look at her, only making her self consciousness grow increasingly worse with each second that ticked by. Her eyes going to him, only to drop them away as she bit her lower lip harshly and tried to hide her features against that pillow. Tears continuing to streak down her face.

However as she felt him grasp her arm, she tried to jerk it back before he could see.........

But he did, and it was like somebody stabbed her, right through the chest.....To see that look in his eyes, to see the way he released her and clutched his chest....

Whimpering softly she would slowly rise onto her knees on the bed, her small hand reaching out and gripping his shirt as she tried to tug him toward her.....

If he allowed such he would soon find her hand pressed softly against his cheek as she looked up at him with those shimmering pools and shook her head.

"Baby please....It is okay..I know now you could not have come back to me....I am fine....I am sorry I was so weak at that time....I just thought....."

She bit her lip and lowered her head, leaning in to rest it upon his chest as she slowly wrapped her slender arms about him, breathing in that lost scent that she had clung to for so many lonely nights. So happy to have him in her arms once more.

Finally she would pull back and look up at him once more. A pleading look in her eyes as she slid her hand down his arm until she could grip his wrist and bring his hand to her stomach where the twins were kicking about feverishly.

"We are fine....."

Another reassurance offered to try and get him to calm down some, her hand going up to trace softly against his ear and the flesh just behind it. Nothing but gentle, soothing touches offered toward the man she loved.

[Cain]

As she grabbed his shirt and tugged him in, the exhaustion of the Junior allowed him to be dragged across, though he adapted whatever energy he had left to keep his eyes away from Zen. The guilt of not being there for her and their children was too much for Cain. He had always been afraid, ever since he found out, about not being a good enough father, yet here he was, already failing before they even came into the world. What happened then once Zen gave birth? Would he disappear again? Would he force them to suffer the same history as he had? The questions repeated themselves in his head, becoming stronger with every repetition.

"Baby please....It is okay..I know now you could not have come back to me....I am fine....I am sorry I was so weak at that time....I just thought....."

Even with the hand on his cheek, and her face on his chest, Cain continued to shiver in frustration and rage. He was having a hard time keeping them in already. Anger at himself, anger at the school, anger at the unnamed student that had scarred Zen and, also, anger at Zen for allowing herself to fall so easily. Zen's hand ran down his arm, though the notion was pretty much ignored by the idle-berserk Cain. Until, of course, his hand came upon her stomach, and he felt the vibrations of movement there. His eyes widened for a moment, his shivering ending completely as he turned towards their twins.

... That's right, they were still here. And he was still here. He had made a mistake, but that did not mean it was all over. He could try again. He had a second chance, he knew it. A precious second chance. He was not going to mess up anymore, not with so much at stake. He was going to try harder, and the first step to redemption then was to get out of his state of self-hate. He swallowed, before turning to Zen. There was something he had to do first, though.

"The kid who attacked you... What's his name? Kevala should have mentioned him."