Love Hurts ( Mischa )

[Ceraphine Davis]

Kevala felt her drawing closer, she felt her own body tense up, and then those sneaky little arms were on her again...and every bit of tension she felt eased out of her instantly.

"Mischa....I have done so many things that are wrong..I have messed up so many times........I...I dont know how to go back..."

She whimpered, sniffling lightly and hiding her face in her knees as she thought about the blood that stained her hands on a regular basis, the demon inside purring for attention, for more blood more suffering......

"I .... never wanted...t...to leave....To say those things......I just..could not take seeing the pain in your eyes every time I fucked up...."

She did not know what to do. She wanted Mischa...more than anything.....But at the same time....They could not rush things, they could not just start up where they left off...She knew that, and no matter how much her mind said that it was possible, she could not risk making another mistake with her.....Who knew how many times they would be able to bounce back......every one had their breaking point....Something she knew all too well.......

[Mischa Badoer]

Mischa's grip tightened then she began rubbing Kevala's back to comfort her.

"I .... never wanted...t...to leave....To say those things......I just..could not take seeing the pain in your eyes every time I fucked up...."

"Hmm... Now let's look at what you just said... yeah I feel pain when ever you fuck up... that is because I'm afraid for you... And I love you... soo when you left... I felt like I had nothing. I went parading in the Seran mansion with a gun not really expecting to come out alive, might as well of held the gun to my own head, 'cause did I have to live for? The person I love hated me."

Mischa stood and walked over in front of Kev then knelt down.

"So I well tell you right now... your biggest fuck up... and the only one that actually hurt me was when you left with nothing but the words 'I never really loved you'."

She would lift Kev's face from her knees and stare her into the eyes. "You're just lucky as hell you are worth all the pain that is bestowed upon me."

[Ceraphine Davis]

She felt her pull away only to move in front of her, those words echoing in her mind as she was forced to look at Mischa, those icy hues now a pale white almost as her sadness showed in her gaze....Though she did not pull away, instead she sniffled and let those tears fall where they may......

Then............

She pouted...her lower lip jutting out just slightly and trembling as she drew in a shaky little breath....A tiny whimper escaping as she struggled to contain herself but finding it near impossible to do so.

So very few people knew that Kev was capable of being so fucking cute and innocent looking.....Everyone thought her some kind of monster, or evil bitch.......Hell even she thought that about herself...........

"I...I just did..w..what I thought..w..was best..."

Was she sulking?

>___>

Yes....yes she was......

Why??

Because she was a big ass baby whenever Mischa scolded her and Mischa knew that damn well.....It was her big advantage over Kevala and always had been.....Kev could not stannnnd being in trouble or anything remotely close when it came to the girl who now knelt before her.........

Those eyes looking sooooo innocent, and though she may have been....well...a serial killer....and yeah...down right evil for most of her day.....She had a part of her that really was innocent and young and just.......childlike.......The part of her that showed its ugly little face right now.......

"I..am sorry....."

[Mischa Badoer]

"I...I just did..w..what I thought..w..was best..."

Mischa's brows furrowed as she watched the tough girl cry. She still had it? Guess so.... that means it might be easier to get some shit into her head.

"I..am sorry....."

Mischa laughed and pressed a soft kiss to those lips once more. She could taste the salt from the tears that were falling from her eyes. "You were just being stupid." she said with another laugh. She was obviously kidding... she just wanted to make Kev laugh... 'cause it sucked seeing such a pretty girl cry...S'pecially when it was your fault. "And Jesus, woman! Stop apologizing or I will give you something to be sorry about."

She would tug Kev into another huggsies. "My God it feels good to hold you again."

[Ceraphine Davis]

She closed her eyes at the kiss, a little sigh passing from her as she savored the feeling before being tugged into another hug, this time nuzzling her head into Mischa and hiding.......

"It is good to feel you again......"

She did not know what it was, but there was never a touch like that of Mischa and she knew there never would be. So for now she would savor every moment they had together.

In the back of her mind thinking bout that boy who was at the hospital with Mischa.....she could easily snap his legs right? Hmmm...

Wait..........

Bad Kev!!

Back to the matter at hand she would finally shift in her spot, pulling free from that hug only to lay down with her head in Mischa's lap....

Why?

Well cause she was loving every moment she got....and would take full advantage of it.

Yush!

She Kev the lovells!!!!

[Mischa Badoer]

Mischa smiled as Kev rested in her lap... humph... just like old times. Though a part of her didn't want that... why? She was scared there was going to be something to take it away. If there was something between them like what they were making it out to be and what it truly felt like.......then they should ease into things...

Mischa combed through her hair and looked off into the distance all epic like with eyes all squinty.

"Sooo... what have you been up to since the last time I saw yeah?"

Well.... she could have done without talking.. 'cause it was like she could just sit there and be QUIET =D?...(OOC:LAWLS that song is actually perfect for the moment. XD)

[Ceraphine Davis]

Kev closed her eyes as she felt that hand brushing through her hair, a content little sigh passing her lips as she shrugged softly and brushed her tongue over her lips.

"Trying my best to raise Ezekial....Trying NOT to piss Gabriel off at every turn....Had a run in with my family..which is always fun....Dealing with my pillars and trying to get a feel for this whole....boss type situation I now find myself in......"

She stopped there, there was one thing that summed it all up in a single sentence.....Everything leading to this one very simple conclusion.

"I have been trying to breath......"

She shook her head. It was so complicated. Everything, and yet no matter what she did, or how much she tried to make things better, she just seemed to fuck them up more.

Truly a curse was upon her or something...Because her life SUCKED!!!!!!

[Mischa Badoer]

Mischa continued to stroke her hair casually as she listened to her problems.

"I have been trying to breath......"

Mischa nodded... saddened Kev was still going through so much shit. Does this girl ever have fun? Always so tied down to other people's crap.

"I have some advice for some of that... First one... You will do fine with Zeke.. you're a fantastic mother.. Kids love you... as for Gabriel... You could always just ignore him..haha worth a try? No... with Gabriel you shouldn't have to worry about what he thinks of you...What is he worth if he can't take you as you are? You're perfect to me..don't know what he sees...as for family... I'm sorry to hear... but I actually have no advice for something like that... my family was my dad and you.... And finally the pillarship.... write down a to-do list and send them on their way..they are big kids now." she let out a small chuckle then looked down at Kev's peaceful face. She could tell she was stressed... Mischa just wished they could sit here forever so Kevala wouldn't have to return to the shit she has to deal with.

"Maybe take my advice and you might be able to gain some room to breath."

[Ceraphine Davis]

She listened, her eyes closed as she simply soaked up the sound of Mischa's voice and the feel of her fingers running through her hair. A smile coming to her lips as she heard the advice offered and nodded.

"You are right. I know that....But you know me too well....When have I ever been able to sit back without trying to fix the problems of others?"

It was just her nature....Her way of being and it was what made her who she was. Either way she would sigh softly and nuzzle her head into Mischa's lap....Simply snuggling up to her contently. It had been so long since she had been able to just.....lay there and talk.......It was nice.....

"What about you? Anything of interest.....besides that....boy in the hospital?"

Sure, Mischa had given a name.....Would Kev use it? Probably not. But who cared!!!

[Mischa Badoer]

"You are right. I know that....But you know me too well....When have I ever been able to sit back without trying to fix the problems of others?"

Mischa smiled enjoying her company a lot more than one person should. She pressed her hands to each side of Kev's face. "Don't make me hold you here forever until you learn. Don't test me you know I will." of course she wouldn't..forever was a bit too much to promise... but for all that it counts..Mischa would f it were possible... and it was usually the thought that counted?

"What about you? Anything of interest.....besides that....boy in the hospital?"

Mischa furrowed her brows looking down at Kev. Sounded like jealousy and Mischa was certain she mentioned his name. Kev had no right to be jealous... he was a friend...

"Riley? Shush you... jealousy isn't your colour. May be mine... but not yours. haha... Well... nothing really. Yah know... Coma.... selling the house." the last little bit was said slightly quiet as if Kevala would put it aside because of it. "But other than that my life is lame as hell." Mischa smiled down at Kev. "Though things have been looking up...seeing you.... having a makeout buddy by the name of Riley."

Kay... she has never kissed Riley in her life, but she just wanted to see how she would react. Mischa smiled biting her lip looking down at the girl.

[Ceraphine Davis]

Kevala laid there, listening intently and then wincing slightly at the mention of selling the house. But she said nothing...She understood.....Yet the last sentence definitely got a reaction...a little growl coming forth as her eyes slowly began to fade from icy blue to crimson...

A little huff of air escaping her as many thoughts went through her mind...Like how he would look with both legs broken....Or his throat cut....Yes...that would work.....Though the idea of making him suffer worked as well......Hmmmm

Sure she knew that she should not be jealous, but she could not help herself....

"Well...Riiiiley....was there for you ...... Though....you know....he is a little on the scrawny side....bit pasty looking to.....And that hair....I mean you can do much better...."

Oh yeah, may not be able to down right say "stay away from him" but she could cast him in a horrid light!

Nuzzling her head into Mischa's lap......Kev had always been very very jealous, she just had never had reason to show it.......Til now.....Granted not the right time...but meh! Since when did Kevala care about such trivial matters.......

[Mischa Badoer]

Mischa had to laugh. Why? She could tell Kev was pissed. Her eyes went to crimson... though she would have been able to tell she was pissed without that little characteristic.

Now after hearing Kev's attempt at down playing him made Mischa's had tilt back as she laughed. "Man... haha... Kev you're ridiculous! I never kissed him once in my life. You know damn well my chick/man magnet is an epic fail! Gawd luck was on my side when I got you." then she shrugged. "But luck couldn't give me a break and had to make you too pretty so I was always having to keep an eye out on you and all the drooling guys."

Yeah she was referring to Devon.....and Gabriel............ she didn't know about all the other guys like Nathaniel....or Jack.... or Donavan....

"Not to mention I wouldn't be able to bring myself to do anything with anyone after losing you cheesy as it may sound."

[Ceraphine Davis]

*win*

Okay so maybe that is not what she should have been thinking under the circumstances, but yeah she did it just the same. Then as Mischa continued to talk she would simply hide her face against Mischa's thigh and nip through the clothing in a teasing fashion.

"You stop that. You could have any guy you wanted if you put your mind to it. Always was worried some guy would come along and steal you away from me..."

Yeah so maybe that was part of the reason Kev had acted out....Figuring it was better she cause the pain then have to suffer through it......

Not like she would ever admit to such, but the realization sorta helped to put herself into prospective......Which she figured was a good thing.......

Reaching back behind her, over her head she would let a single hand come to rest on Mischa's side, fingers stroking idly over her through the shirt....Not daring to let them do as they pleased which would have been to pull up that shirt enough to let her fingers fall upon bare flesh......

Yes.....must behave......

[Mischa Badoer]

Mischa bit her lip at the all to familiar nip at her thigh. Hanging out with Kevala was bringing up a lot of memories. At least they were good and not just Mischa rolling around on the bathroom floor crying her ass off.

>.>

<.<

"You stop that. You could have any guy you wanted if you put your mind to it. Always was worried some guy would come along and steal you away from me..."

Mischa shrugged. "I don't want to put my mind to it.... aaaand as for a guy stealing me from you? Fuck that noise." in response to Kev touching her side Mischa stroked her cheek...then slid her thumb across her lower lip slowly. "My eyes are for you." her voice was a whisper..soothing and truthful.

[Ceraphine Davis]

Kevala felt that hand on her cheek, that soft thumb brushing over her lower lip and in turn offering a little nip to it.....Her tongue brushing against the delicate flesh.

She shivered, loving the taste even as she pulled away....Letting out a shaky breath.....

"W..Would you...want to meet Ezekial?"

She was trying to pull her attention away from that which it was consumed by at the moment....Which was Mischa, and several naughty ideas she was more than willing to experiment with on the girl.....

Yes......Very naughty.....

Gaaaahhh!!!

Shifting onto her hands and knees she could not help herself, her head leaning in and brushing over Mischa's neck slowly, another nip offered before she pulled back, resting her forehead against Mischa's shoulder......

"Gods you torture me so...."

She pulled back, that smile on her lips once more as she let out a heavy sigh to try and steady herself.....

"I love it though......."

A little laugh before pulling back a bit more and sitting down to face Mischa.....Waiting on her reply....Unsure if she could really control herself if they kept this us....hell...she knew she couldnt...