Tortured Dreams (Mischa)

[Ceraphine Davis]

Another restless night. The dreams had started up again and Kev had been struggling to keep Mischa from finding out. How many nights now had she woken up, covered in a cold sweat and trembling? How many times had she curled herself about the woman she loved to try and calm herself down?

She honestly did not know...the days just seemed to run into each other once more. She had hoped she was past this..that she had gotten over the nightmares that plagued her mind. It had gotten so bad at one point that she had found herself not sleeping, not eating..simply struggling to make it from day to day......But Mischa had helped her...had gotten her through it all....Then they had moved here, and Kev had thought that it meant their lives were finally going to be normal..That SHE was finally going to be normal...But they were back....torturing her mind at every turn....bringing fear into her heart and into her mind every night and causing her to lose more and more sleep. She worried that Mischa was starting to notice...Starting to see the subtle signs of her not eating..of the way she seemed a bit more sluggish than usual...

Tonight was no different...Once more, what had started as a peaceful dream was slowly beginning to turn into something darker...something much more disturbing...........

Kevala turned, that smile on her face as she made her way into the living room of their home...She had never thought that she would find happiness the likes of which she shared with Mischa and the twins...But they were a family, and for once..she was not scared of being in love with somebody and having them love her in return. She had always been so scared that if somebody told her they loved her, then they would leave....It had always been the way things happened in the past and it was her one true fear....

But Mischa was different..had proven that she could love Kevala and not leave....It was more than Kevala could have ever asked for..

As she entered the living room...what usually was a light and airy place was suddenly filled with darkness and the smell of death....She stopped, frozen in her tracks as she felt her hands begin to tremble....

No...no no no....Not in her home..not in THEIR home......

"Mischa!!"

She screamed out...once more moving, trying to find the girl as she threw open door after door of their home.....But nothing....

"Baby please! Answer me!"

She cried out, already feeling the despair and heartbreak seeping into her mind......No, this could not be happening...the air of the house, the emotions that filled it...they were not real.....Nothing had happened to them.....

She hurried to the twins rooms.....throwing open each door to find nothing but blood soaked sheets and empty bed......

Her stomach turned, the thought of something happening to the twins......She took off....heading up to their room that the two shared and throwing open the door...again greeted by the scent of death and blood covering their bed and the floor.....Walls smeared with it.....

"Aiden...Kazu!!! Mischa!"

She screamed out again...her hands coming to her head, fingers gripping her hair as she closed her eyes..no..it was all a dream..it had to be..some horrible nightmare........A warm droplet slid down her temple and over he cheek......Crimson hues shooting open to look at her hands which were covered in blood.....

You killed them....your precious family.......

Murderer!

"No, no, no! I wouldnt! Mishca..baby please answer me!!"

Then suddenly she was back at Gabriel's...his body laying there.....guilt washing over her........She had failed him...she always failed...they were dead and gone and it was her fault.......

Growling softly those eyes flashed to black, red streaks swirling in them as she snapped....losing her mind once more as she reached out...the feel of somebody within her grip...Some young kid...he was begging her to let him go...but she would not....

Instead she sank her teeth into his neck, tearing at his flesh...She wanted blood...she wanted to cause pain and suffering...for all that she had lost...for all those she loved that had left her........She would destroy everything in her path.....Nothing was going to stop her.....Nothing......

[Mischa Badoer]

Mischa now lived in a decent home with Kevala. They were together for two years now and everything was great. Though for some reason Mischa couldn't shake off the feeling Kevala was alright with the move. Mischa had seen her behavior before... lack of sleep or even a bad diet. Mischa was going to talk to her the next day, but now they were sleeping.

In her sleep, Mischa would stir.. an uneasy feeling was settling deep inside her. It was a dreamless night until she started feeling disoriented. Kevala was obviously not having a good dream and it must have been rubbing off on Mischa... The girl was an empath anyway...

Mischa got home...The house was dark and she had seen two people in the shadows in the bed room. She could tell they were yelling... but she didn't know who they were. Finally... one struck the other making it fall. The aggressive shadow began to beat the crippling body with a fire poker. Mischa cringed and looked away...disgusted...

Now that the sounds of the metal against the corpse quieted, the Shadow moved passed her. Mischa tried getting a good look, but still missed the facial features.

Once the murderer left the room, Mischa took a few steps to the body and a look of horror shot to her face when she saw herself lying on the floor bloodied. Mischa leaned in closer, only to have the body shoot up and scream at her. She body grabbed at the collar of Mischa's shirt as she tried to pull away while screaming in the terror of the sudden awakening of the dead clone. When Mischa pulled away the Dead followed, and Mischa was sickened so she would push the corpse out of the window. She was feeling light headed and she leaned against the wall...dragging herself to the mirror, leaving a trail of blood. Her eyes looked into the mirror and saw the dead girl..only it was her reflection. Mischa's eyes closed in shock with a little yelp. When her eyes opened she was back to normal... but not everything was....

Babies were screaming. It didn't take long to realize which babies were. Mischa ran out of the room and down the hall towards the twins' rooms. She came too late. The shadow Ran by with two babies in the arms. Mischa turned to the door to catch the shadow only to realize it was heading down the stairs then out the front door. Mischa rant o the cribs and cried to see them being empty.

She knew it was a dream.. but it still scared her to death... still made her heartache to see the children missing and their beds bloodied.

"Mischa!!"

Mischa's head turned to the sound of her name being called by Kevala. Mischa heard the doors being slammed down stairs and she couldn't run... she couldn't scream...

"Baby please! Answer me!"

OH God one of those dreams; she still couldn't move... Before she would try further on, Kevala ran into the Twin's rooms and straight for the crib. She looked absolutely horrified... and she was drenched in blood.. head to toe. Kevala turned and ran out the door and she hadn't noticed Mischa standing there the whole time.

"Aiden...Kazu!!! Mischa!"

Now Mischa was able to follow the call... but she couldn't reply. Mischa stood at the door way, still taken off guard from all the blood... Her eyes looked to Kevala...Her eyes staring down at her bloodied hands.

You killed them....your precious family.......

Mischa looked around only to find they were alone...

Murderer!

Still alone...

"No, no, no! I wouldn't! Mischa..baby please answer me!!"

Mischa started to cry and would run to her... but as she neared..she ran into a wall.... and brick wall. She looked around and they weren't in San Diego... but in Long Beach at a familiar house. She saw a window and ran to it. Inside was Kevala looking down at Gabriel's body. It was the same room Mischa had been taken to when she passed out from the fight in the mall with Gabe. Mischa's eyes saw Kevala's eyes turn black with red swirls... and as she shifted she saw a boy behind her.

"KEVALA!" Mischa screamed. She pounded on the glass window... Rain pouring down on her... She didn't think she could be heard. "Kev! BABY DON'T!" Her fists pounded on the glass... normally they would break..but this was a dream.. a horrible nightmare. She watched as Kev bit into the boys' neck. Mischa covered her mouth trying not to throw up.

She turned and ran around the house... She got to the nearest entrance and tried her best to find the room.

"Kevala!?" screaming her name she needed to hear her. She didn't remember her way around the house... Because she wasn't familiar with Gabriel's home it would be like a maze... and because this was a nightmare... it literally was a maze...Dead ends and going around in circles she kept calling Kevala's name.

"Answer me baby! I don't know where you are I want to help!"

She heard a child scream... that was enough. She ran, bumping into walls because she couldn't stop in time... but finally.. she found the room... Several bodies laying on the ground... Kevala livid and bloody.

"Kevala!"

She ran to the girl and wrapped her arms around her.. even knocking her onto a couch and away from all the carnage.

"Calm down! I'm here sweetheart..." Mischa tried not to look at the mess behind her... she didn't want to see what was in Kevala's mind... she wanted to help and she needed to get Kev away from the chaos. "Shhh baby...I'm here.." she would slick back the hair that stuck to her face from all the crimson liquid.

[Ceraphine Davis]

Kevala's entire body shifted upon the bed, her small hands gripping the sheet beneath her, nails tearing through the fabric as she writhed in place....Her black hair sticking to her face as sweat began to form on her tiny frame....A soft whimper escaping her as pain, both emotional and physical ran through her entire being...Her head was killing her....a result of the nightmares that occurred from time to time..yet she did not wake...No, this was one of the nightmares that held her in its bloody grip and refused to let her go.....Refused to let her have a moments peace....She had no clue she was sending out her own emotions and dreams toward Mischa......It had never occurred to her that due to their closeness that something like that could happen......

But then she had never been with somebody like she was with this girl......Never had she felt the kind of love she did for Mischa........

Another body fell to the ground.....Blood pouring down her chin and her neck...her hands coated in it.......Long black strands of hair stuck to her bloodied face as she growled at the sound of somebody coming.....Another person she did not know ran past her, or tried to...but before he could get by she had shot forward, grabbing him about the arm and twisting it until she heard the satisfying sound of it breaking......His screams echoed in the room....a sick and twisted grin spreading across her lips as she laughed darkly at his pain and torment.

But then there was a sound...something familiar...but she shook it off..No...she was not going to fall for any tricks....Dropping the man she held down to the ground she would straddle his body, her hands coming up to the sides of his head as she slammed it down onto the tiled floor...Blood splattering across the tile and the sickening sound of his skull cracking sent a shiver of delight up her spine....

It was then she would lean down, biting into his flesh and tearing at his neck, a large chunk taken out of him as she growled loudly and spit it to the side......She hungered for the blood...needed the blood...It was the only thing that would make this all go away......She had to become the monster she as always destined to be...the monster she kept locked away.......

She had kept it back...for the sake of Mischa...but she was gone....they were all gone.......Now, she would destroy everyone.......

As she stood back up, she was suddenly pushed back....her body pinned against a couch as she struggled to get free....words filling her ears as those black eyes settled upon the girl atop her.......Hands coming up and brushing her hair back from her face.....

Those black eyes flickered..once more returning to their icy blue shade.......a bit of sense coming to her chaotic mind.....

Mischa.........

Don't let it fool you...You killed her...Just like you do everything else...Her..Aiden...Kazumi.....You could not protect them..you could not save them......

MONSTER!!

Those eyes instantly returned back to their black color..those crimson swirls only continuing now as she growled and tried to push the girl off of her....

"You are not my Mischa.....I killed her...Like I kill everything I touch!"

The voices were controlling her...they had a lock on her mind and were not going to stop until they had driven her completely mad....

Finally she would manage to get the girl off of her...and in turn would fall to the floor....Pushing herself across the bloodied tile as the voices began to speak in soft whispers that filled the air.....

Monster....Monster.....Monster....

Worthless....Murderer......Failure....

Her small hands came up to the sides of her head as she shook it back and forth trying to drown them out....continuing to back away until she found herself pinned in a corner.....Tears streaking down her bloodied cheeks.......

[Mischa Badoer]

Moans escaped her mouth as she moved from side to side on the bed. She hadn't had a nightmare like this since the death of her mother or the death of her uncle. Her body writhed in the sadness and scared feeling jolting through her body.

She couldn't wake up.

It would look like she had gotten some sense into the chaotic girl. Her eyes returned but she heard the voices again.. and Kevala was gone again. She pushed Mischa off and she fell back on the floor with Kevala. Mischa shoved the bodies away from her as Kevala crawled away from her. She saw the girl cradle herself in the corner and Mischa got up but slipped back down from all the blood on the tile. She slid herself on the floor trying to get to Kev as fast as she could.

"Kev.. don't listen to them. Who are you going to? Those voices? The voices that get you in trouble?" she got close and moved the girl's hands from her ears so she could put her hands on either side of her cheek. Once she had done that she would force Kevala to look at her.. her forehead against Kevala's. "Or me? Listen to me, babe. I'm the only one real... Don't listen to them..."

She pressed a kiss to her lips; ignoring all the blood that coated each of their faces. "Can you feel that? You can feel me, Kev.. can you feel them? No I'm here for you..they aren't don't listen to them.. they are lying.." She would slide her hands to behind Kev's head to pull her close, so Mischa's chin would be resting atop her head and Kevala's cheek would be resting against Mischa's chest and neck. She cradled her as if she were a little girl and rocked back and forth to try and ease her. "You aren't a monster...they are..."

She was in a dream and Kevala was murdering everyone... she needed to help the girl even in her own dream... though she didn't know it was a shared event. She was sure if she some how knew... Mischa would try her best to wake up and get Kevala up to help her..to comfort her properly.

"Kev... shhh...." she said.. still trying to comfort her and cut out the two voices.

[Ceraphine Davis]

T[/size]he sound of the voices continued to echo throughout the room, though now they were rapid whispers, too fast and muffled to make much sense of.....at least to anyone but Kev..She held her hands over her ears...trying to stop them..trying to ignore the names they called her.....

Yet they were all true....she was a monster....evil.....a failure....She whimpered once more.....just as she felt a set of hands pulling her own away from her ears......Soft words....familiar words....As she felt that forehead against her own, those black eyes would open up to look at the girl who now knelt before her....Tears streaking through the blood on her cheeks as she bit down upon her lower lip.....And then a kiss........to some it may not have seemed like much...but to Kevala it was home......peace.....sanctuary....

It was the one thing that kept her sane in the world she lived in.....

Those black eyes began to fade...giving way to the icy shade that was their normal color as her head was pulled forward and placed against Mischa's chest......Her entire body trembling and covered in blood she drew in a deep breath....Her slender arms slipping forth to wrap about the girl before her as she began to sob lightly...

Pulling her head back, she would look up into Mischa's face once more...seeing the blood and instantly becoming angry with herself...Had she done this.....Had she caused this to happen? The sight of blood on Misch was more than enough to break her heart...she never wanted to see something like this...Never....

Her small hand coming up to brush away some of the blood on the other girls cheek as tears filled her icy hues....Gently she would lean in...pressing a kiss to her lips before pulling back to whisper lovingly....

"I am sorry baby.....But this is my nightmare....I will not make you suffer it with me..."

She had to be pulling the girl into it..had to be doing something for she felt her emotions..and in her dreams that never happened...But she would not do that to Mischa....she loved her too much to allow her to suffer through that which she did every night......The sound of the voices once more starting to pick up......causing pain to rip through her mind ..........

And with that, she severed whatever link she was using to pull Mischa in....arms falling away as the girl was pulled from her dream....Leaving Kevala alone with the blood and the voices once more...........[/i]

Her body tensed...pain shot through her head as tears slid down from the corners of her eyes....her body writhing more upon the bed as nails tore into the sheets......Her hair stuck to her sweaty face..clothing sticking to her body.........

"Mischa!!"

She screamed out even though she was trapped inside her nightmare still....Unable to wake........

.....the voices came for her again......eyes turning black as she again felt the darkness consume her.....her last thought before the darkness took hold.......

At least Mischa is safe...........

And then she was lost again.......

[Mischa Badoer]

Mischa smiled now that she got the girl's attention.. she even recieved a kiss back. As Kevala wiped at the blood on her face, Mischa would do the same to kevala. She didn't want to see Kev in this kind of mess... this was not Kevala.. it was just her mind playing tricks on her... harsh tricks. "I am sorry baby.....But this is my nightmare....I will not make you suffer it with me..."

"No..nononono.."

She begged Kev to stop the foolish words.. but then she was gone... everything was gone...


Mischa was back into a dreamless sleep.. though she was uneasy. She got up quickly...enough to make her roll off the bed and smack her head on the side table. A very Mischa thing to do but at the moment it just really pissed her off. She wiped the blood from her forehead and got up. She didn't see a flash of yellow or anything so she was fine and didn't have a concussion.. Now her attention was back to Kevala when she heard the girl scream.

She looked to Kevala on the bed... moving..her breath fast and body slicked in sweat. Mischa jumped on the bed even straddled the girl crying.

"Kevala! Wake up!" she carressed the girl's wet cheek as she tried and settled all the movement. "Kevala, honey...wake up! Wake up! it's a nightmare!" her voice wasn't loud or startling, but it did have enough volume to wake someone and it was full of sincerity.

[Ceraphine Davis]

H[/size]er body shifted upon the bed....pain filling every inch of her body and mind as she struggled within her dream...by this point seeing nothing but blood at every turn......She was full of rage and fear........the entire bedroom was filled with it.......

Then there was a weight upon her, that familiar voice coming to her mind as she was jolted awake....The blood fading as the sight of Mischa came into view....No...she did not pull her back into the dream did she?

Eyes shot around them to see that they were in their bedroom...She was safe...Mischa was safe.....Instantly her hands shot up, grabbing the girl and pulling her down to her as she wrapped her arms about her...Holding her close as she breathed in deeply that heavenly scent.....The one which always seemed to put her at ease....

She felt her entire body trembling as the sweat that covered her became cold upon the air of the room....But she did not care...she simply continued to keep her arms wrapped about Mischa.....

"Don't leave me baby..Please...Don't leave me..."

It was like they were back in that time before when she had suffered from these horrible nightmares in Long Beach...Always begging for the same thing from Mischa whenever she woke....Always pleading with her to stay........

"I cant lose you....I just cant....I need you too much..."

Then there was a feel of something warm and damp against her head......She recognized it all too well and would pull back, her hand coming up to touch upon the blood which rested upon Mischa....Instant fear filling her eyes....

"Did I hurt you? Did I do this?"

She struggled to sit up, eyes searching over Micha to make sure she was okay.....if she had hurt her, Kevala would never forgive herself.....

[Mischa Badoer]

"Don't leave me baby..Please...Don't leave me...I cant lose you....I just cant....I need you too much..."

She comforted Kev as the girl held on tight around Mischa. She embraced Kevala as well and shook her head. "You know I won't... When have I ever? You know I won't..."

"Did I hurt you? Did I do this?"

She got up in a panic and Mischa once again shook her head no and her mouth silent spoke the words no several times as she got close to her.

"Kev..no you didn't hurt me... My own clumsy ass did." she said with a large smile. It was true... Mischa was used to all the bumps and bruises from falling... "I just got too close to the edge of the table, that's all. It could happen to even non clumsy people." her smile was comforting as her hand came up to comb through Kevala's hair. "Do..do you just want to stay up the rest of the night... it's six in the morning.. so it won't be too much of a loss... I can make a cup of hot chocolate for us?"

She never approved of Kevala losing sleep... but after witnessing that little spell and being apart of it...Mischa could kind of understand why and was a little shaken up to go back to bed.

"Come...We can sit on the couch and watch Re-runs of Friends..." she would slide off the bed and pat on her thigh before she would head out the room...Check on the twins...then head down stairs...how could she not check on the twins after that? Yeah any way she went down stairs into the kitch and started boiling the hot water as she prepared a blanket on the love seat and got the movie in.

[Ceraphine Davis]

S[/size]he drew in a deep breath as she shook her head...okay so she had not done it..but that table was so going in the morning.

It was something they constantly fought over....Mischa was clumsy, something that gave Kevala heartfailure every time the girl was out and about on her own.....But Kev had long since gotten used to the things she could not control. They still bothered her, but for the most part, she was okay.....

Now as for inside the house......Well that was a different story..and if Mischa knew Kev, she would kow that by tomorrow night er....tonight...whatever....That table would be soooo gone.....But then as Mischa shifted off her to stand, Kevala would nod...Some amazing hotchocolate was just what she needed right now...and honstly, nobody made it better than Mischa....So,, with that she would move to change into some clothes that were a little more dry....a pair of boxer shorts and a short tank top.....

Making her own trip into the kids room to make sure that they were okay and then down the stairs to take her spot upon the loveseat... curling up as she tucked a bit of hair back behind her ear...honesty she was still a bit shaken about the dream...images flashing in her mind....

[Mischa Badoer]

Mischa heard the whistle blow and she hurried to it's call. If she didn't she feared the children would be wakened up and putting two two-year-olds to bed at the same time was a conquest no one could do within minutes. Once the loud noise died down she poured the water into the mugs along with some chocolate and the right amount of milk.

om nom nom.

She grabbed both the mugs, one by the handle and the other by the actual cup so Kev could grab it without any trouble. She quickly walked into the living room to get it to her as fast as she could.

"ouwyouwyouwyouwy..." she stopped in front of Kev and held the cup out to her as her legs were running on the spot. "Hothothothot take it.." When Kevala would take the cup she would lift the blanket and hop on the couch and cuddle up to Kev. She reached for the remote and turned on the movie looking over at Kev.

"Forget about it, kay? It was just a bad dream... you didn't actually do those things..I'm still here." she would peck the girl on the cheek and wrap and arm around her hugging her closely as her eyes watched the flashing screen and took a sip of her hot chocolate. "Aw...I think we watched this one..." Mischa said with a small chuckle and large smile. Of course they watched it.. it was a re-run...

[Ceraphine Davis]

S[/size]he sat there, curled up on the loveseat, her mind running over that dream over and over again...She could not help it. So much blood, and the voices...they were getting worse...Never had they been that strong, even in dream form....What if she was losing herself........

Her thoughts cut short by the sound of Mischa coming in with the hot chocolate. Quickly she reached up and took the cup, shaking her head as she felt it burn against her flesh...something that honestly did not bother her all that much...

"How many times do I have to tell you baby..I will get it when its hot like that...No need to burn yourself."

A soft smile curling on her lips as she took a sip and then set the cup aside....Yup..Mischa made the most awesome hot chocolate ever...

It was then that she felt Mischa snuggle in next to her, that kiss to her cheek getting a smile on her lips as she curled her own form against her...Those words however getting a tremble to run down her spine....

"I just think......."

She shook her head.....it was a silly thought and nothing she wanted to burden Mischa with at this time in the morning......Instead she would simply snuggle thing against her and keep her and nod softly to her words.....

"Sure...I always did like this one..."