Changes (Cain)

[Zen]

Zen had been home for the last week, not sleeping well at night due to night terrors and memories of the day her brother had almost killed her and the baby. Sure it had been a lot time since then, but she was just emotional and moody and yeah, none of her clothes fit anyways.

Lately she had taken to wearing just a pair of underwear and Cain's shirts around the house...Her figure still petite and trim except for the now well defined bump in her tummy where the baby grew.

But something else had kept her home today, a doctor's visit..which had left her both nervous and happy at the same time. Drawing in a deep breath, she grabbed her bowl of peanut butter and ice cream and made her way to the couch, and envelope laid upon the coffee table as she turned on the television.....She was waiting...of course....for Cain to come home....With his new duties as School Captain he had been rather busy lately, and getting him to slow down had been a bit of a challenge.

Yet Zen did not say much...But today she had sent him a text, very simple and yet at the same time very clear in what she wanted....

Baby...when you get done at school today could you come home instead of staying after as usual?

See usually he had to stay after til at least most of the kids had left, just to make sure nothing happened, just like he had to be there early in order to make sure that nothing happened....He was stressed lately and she knew that, but she was an emotional wreck and well.....yeah she was pregnant.

Either way, she finished up her snack, another craving gone wrong, and set the bowl down beside the envelope....Laying back on the couch she looked at the clock....Still several hours before he would be home.......Fine......She figured she could just watch t.v and perhaps take a nap.......

So, it was not surprising that later, when the time came that he SHOULD be coming home, she was on the couch, out like a light, her legs curled up and her stomach resting softly over her lower abdomen....Long brownish blond locks falling over her face and concealing it from view.....Yes, she was very tired lately, given that she did not sleep much at night and all........Now it was just a matter of him coming home....Not sure if he would do as she asked of if he would again be late.......to which case he would be in trouble....again......and he knew all too well how an emotional, pregnant, Zen could behave.......

[Cain]

"Cain! Wake up!"

And a loud smack could be heard as the teacher slapped his hand down on Cain's table, the Junior's eyes shooting open as he sat up so quickly he almost fell off his chair. It all looked so funny, really. The School Captain was in class, sleeping. Cain glanced around for a moment, as if confused as to where he was, before his emerald eyes finally found the hard gaze of his teacher, who stood in front of him, arms crossed. Cain then realised what was happening and gave a soft smile, scratching the back of his head as he apologised.

"And you're supposed to be setting an example. Gah."

And the teacher walked back to the front of the classroom in frustration, wanting to continue his lesson as the School Captain buried his face in his right hand, before brushing it downwards, as if trying to clean off the sleepiness on his face. Just like Zen, Cain did not have much sleep the past few weeks, for with every nightmare that Zen experienced, Cain would wake up to just to watch over her and comfort her. He was depriving himself of sleep, yes, but it was all so that Zen could go sleep again. Though, it had gone on for quite a while and it was certainly taking a toll on both of them.

Cain glanced over at the clock. School was far from over. A soft groan escaped his lips. Even when school hours was done, Cain knew that he would have to stay behind just to watch over the unruly students of this school. Honestly, could he ever be given a break? A soft chuckle escaped his lips as that thought crossed his mind. he took this title cause he figured it would be a challenge. Well, it was certainly challenging him now, but was he really going to back down from it? He looked at the table, before letting out a grin. Nah, no way. Then, there was a vibration in his pocket, the School Captain waking up once more as he glanced down at it. A message? Who could it be?

And the bell rang, the School Captain leaving the classroom to head for the next class as he reached into his pocket, pulling out his Nokia phone. It was a message from Zen. He raised an eyebrow. Under the doctor's orders, she was excused from school for a brief period of time. Did she need something?

Baby...when you get done at school today could you come home instead of staying after as usual?

Cain stopped in his tracks, rereading the message. And then, he grinned. The thought of being able to go home early was good but... Oh, right! He almost forgot! He had pillars now to help him. A soft grin came upon his face as the thought of sneaking away right after school came to mind. Well, one time could not hurt, right? Besides, the others should be good enough to take care of the school. With that in mind, as the final bell rang, Cain allowed himself to merge into the crowd of departing students, most of which did not want to get involved in any after-school violence, before heading home.

It was not long after that he reached home either, as he opened the door with his key, looking inside. He saw Zen's familiar figure upon the couch, a soft smile upon his face. She was sleeping. Hah. And Cain thought she would be waiting for his return. Well, it was kinda good. At least she was catching up on her rest. Cain closed the door behind him, before moving over towards her as he sat down beside her, allowing his arm to go over her shoulder and pull her to him, her head dropping to his shoulder then as he held her firmly.

"Hey... I'm home..."

[Zen]

She had been sleeping somewhat restlessly but sleeping just the same, yet as she felt herself pulled up and close to that familiar warm body she smiled at the words he spoke....Of course the first thing her eyes did when the cracked open was look at the clock....

Okay..he had come straight home.....

A little mental grin at the thought before she yawns sleepily and snuggled her small body up against his....a bit harder to curl up now given that she was not as thin around the middle these days...Heh...

"Hey baby.....How was school today?"

She nuzzled herself into him slightly as her head tilted and placed a soft kiss over his cheek...Letting him reply before she would continue on with her part of the conversation.......

"I went to the doctor today..."

She had not mentioned this appointment to him, because he always seemed to worry too much when she said she had a doctor's appointment...Always worried that something would be wrong with her.....But today had been something she wanted to do on her own, to surprise him with later...and if she did not achieve that then she was just gonna give up on trying to surprise him.......

Leaning forward, she pushed herself off the couch, that shirt falling to give the outline of her stomach more definition as she leaned down and picked up the envelope....

Without a word she handed it to him, and then rested her hand on her stomach...

"I am thirsty. Do you want anything baby?"

Heading off to the kitchen as though it was no big deal..trying to play it off as best she could to give the ultimate shock factor.....

When he opened the envelop he would find several sonogram pictures of the babies....Yes...both of them......and both of them boys.....Never had she imagined she would be pregnant this young in life, but twin boys...that was just.......yeah.....

She stood in the kitchen, pouring herself a glass of milk and getting whatever he wanted if anything....She then turned and headed back into the living room....Moving to stop just in front of Cain as she waited......trying to judge for some reaching as her hand softly brushed over her lower abdomen where his twin sons now grew inside of her.....It was the babies' first picture, and she had thought that maybe that would really drive it home what was going to happen between them.......

[Cain]

Oh, she was awake? Cain passed her a smile as she looked up at him. That is, of course, after she looked at the clock, causing Cain to grin initially as he knew that she had doubted her to have come. Cain almost wanted to rub it into her face that he actually came home, but knew that it was something that he wanted to do on his own will too. So, he merely smiled, as she snuggled to him, his other arm coming around to wrap around her waist.

"School? Oh, it was fine. I fell asleep in class, though... Again."

Cain chuckled, knowing that she knew about the first time he fell asleep in class, just a few days back. He had been sent to detention then, and because he was the School Captain, he had to do thrice the punishment. Talk about setting an example. Fortunately there was no detention this time round, Cain barely escaping the torturous moments of waiting in a white room with totally nothing to do.

"I went to the doctor today..."

Cain looked at her, surprised and disappointed at the same time. She went to the doctor? Why wasn't he told about this? He let out a soft sigh of disapproval, his eyes digging into hers, as if waiting for an explanation. However, he received none. At least, not yet. Just when he was about to ask for it, however, she would move away from him, leaning forward and picking up an envelope that Cain had just noticed. And she passed it to him. The disappointment in his face faded away as he looked at it curiously. A letter? He took it in his hand, staring at it briefly before looking up at Zen.

Before he could ask, however, she would get up, indicating that she was going to go to the kitchen to get a drink. Did that mean that he was supposed to open the envelope himself and find out? He followed her figure for a moment with his eyes, before letting them traverse to the curious letter in his hand.

"Uhm, I'll have the usual."

The usual, of course, meaning Cain's favorite flavoured drink, which would be none other than mango. Yes, there were always two cartons of mango juice in the fridge, something that Cain always made sure to have. Yes, Cain loved mango. A lot.

But to more important matters, he opened the envelope then, allowing himself to pull it a few pieces of plastic-like paper from inside. What's this? Cain then found himself looking at a large photograph and his eyes widened. This...

Zen came back, Cain's eyes slowly moving from the pictures to meet hers as he tilted the photographs so she could see them too. With his other hand, he pointed at the pictures, gulping as he did.

"These.... ...."

... Here it comes.

"What are these?"

Well, who could blame him? Cain was always a clueless individual when it came to such matters of parenting.

[Zen]

She handed him his drink, taking another sip of her own before she raised her brow and then grinned slightly.

"Well I do not know their names yet, but those would be your sons."

Nodding as she set he drink down and spotted a piece of trash. GAH! This house just did not stay clean enough...yeah more wrath of pregnant Zen......But anyways, she moved away once more, this time to pick up the trash and the throw it away before finally returning to the couch, sitting down beside him and then leaning back so that her hands could rest on her stomach, simply watching him.....

Still not sure what to think about his reaction. Was it good, bad, what?!

She was dying inside at the thought of him not being happy yet still angry if he was not and then nervous about what if he was and the boys were not what he expected....So many thoughts racing through her mind as she bit the corner of her lower lip nervously once more.......

"So? Have anything to say?"

She brushed her hands over her stomach, those almond hues never leaving him as she sat there....simply unable to do anthing but wait and see what happened.......

[Cain]

And Cain, with the hand that was pointing at the photograph, would take the cup of mango juice from Zen with a soft 'Thank you.', before proceeding to take a sip from it, his eyes still on Zen as he waited for her answer. Honestly, the Junior was really clueless as to what was on the photograph, this being the first of its kind that he had seen. And then, she answered, just as Cain removed the rim of the glass off his lips.

"Well I do not know their names yet, but those would be your sons."

Cain looked back at the picture with widened eyes, the Junior almost spitting out the mango juice if he was not so focused on the picture. The juice simply continued flowing down his throat. His sons? Wait. Sons? Twins? Cain's eyes had never been so wide with shock. He was going to have two children now? And as if one was worrying enough, now Cain had twice the chances of failing as a father. He let out a soft chuckle, though. For despite the doubt and worry that bothered him, there was also the happiness of finally knowing what it felt like to be in a family.

Twins, huh? And un-named twins, too. Of course, that mean that they would have to decide on a name themselves too. Wow. Cain never thought he'd actually get such a privilege at such a young age, being able to give a life and also give it a name. Heh. When Cain left New York for a new start, he never thought that his new life would experience so much changes.

"So? Have anything to say?"

Cain smiled for a moment as he turned towards Zen, looking into her eyes as he did. Was he happy? Yes. Of course, he was worried too. It was a sort of complex mixed feeling in anticipation of being a parent. Complex, but understandable at the same time. He was still a kid, after all.

"Unnamed, you say? Well, let's name one each. I'm calling one of them... Ray."

[Zen]

HE WAS WORRIED!?!! She was the one carrying the two little buggers in her oven and for gods sake what the hell was that name? Ray? Where the hell did that come from?

~Calm.....Calm~

Fucking hormones.......Drawing in a deep breath she raised her brow and then bit the corner of her lower lip slightly...unsure how to reply to that....Well she would put a bit more thought into what she named her half...she supposed you could call it that. Heh.....Moving to stand before him, she noted the worry in his eyes hidden behind his happiness, her small hand coming out to brush gently over his neck in that soothing and affectionate manner.....

"I will have to think on what I shall name him. I know it is a lot...I never thought to bring this upon you.."

Yes, part of her feared that he would be upset, she had been scared all day long as was clear in the wavering touch she offered from her trembling hands....the slight tinge of fear in the corners of those almond hues.......

With a soft sigh she would then return to biting that lower corner of her lip, her fingers continuing to stroke the side of his neck lovingly......

"I cannot explain it....But I love you Cain...and...I want us...to be a family...I know it has only been such a short while....But my life without you would be....unimaginable."

She tried to hide the whimper at the end of her words but it escaped slightly just the same....Tears filling her eyes...GOD DAMN HORMONES! A little sniffle given as she turned away and hurried to go clean up the kitchen.....and cry....cause yeah...she was like that lately........

[Cain]

The deep breathe. The biting of the lip. The disappointment in her eyes. Alright, Cain probably did not answer the way she wanted him to. His smile turned into one of awkwardness as he looked at her, unsure of what to do then. And then, she would stand up, moving in front of Cain, prompting the Junior to raise his chin to look up at her. Her hand would then come upon his neck, that smile of his fading as he looked away, his hand coming to grab hers.

"I will have to think on what I shall name him. I know it is a lot...I never thought to bring this upon you.."

In a way, both of them already expected this to happen, on the first night they met. Mid-way through, they had stopped too, but they continued on, despite knowing the risks. Hell, for that night, they threw away every considering of those risks, for it was all about just the two of them that night. And now, here they were, in the consequences of their actions.

"I cannot explain it....But I love you Cain...and...I want us...to be a family...I know it has only been such a short while....But my life without you would be....unimaginable."

And she would whimper, Cain's eyes returning to hers as he noticed the tears in her eyes, his eyebrows furrowing as he did. He hated seeing her this way, miserable and broken. Made him feel as if he was a failure as her man, as if that there was someone else out there that could do it better. And he hated that thought utterly. As she would try to escape to the kitchen, Cain would keep his grip upon her hand, keeping her in place as he gently pulled her to sit upon his lap, his arms going around her now-larger waist.

He sighed.

"You know I love you too, Zen... But you know how my father was. I didn't exactly have a father-figure to look up to. I don't know how to take care of a child, much less be a father-figure to one. I'm just worried I'll fail as your child's father."

[Zen]

That grip on her wrist held her in place and soon tugged her to sit within his lap, her still small form curling up slightly as she shifted her body to put her legs over to his right and her head on his shoulder, her little fingers idly tracing over his chest as he spoke....

Yes, the thought of stopping had occurred that night...but in the moment all she could think about was him.....and it had been that way ever since....It was like the world outside ceased to exist when she was in his arms and as he finished, she would reach her hand up, away from his chest to brush against his cheek softly....

"I know baby...I did not have much of a family either. But you are a good man...I see that in you and you will be an excellent father to OUR children...."

She then lifted her head to place a kiss to the underside of his jaw...nipping lightly in a playful manner as she snuggled into him...her head returning to rest against his shoulder....

"I did not have much of a family either. I had bad things happen to me....I cannot even sleep at night for gods sake....What kind of Mother do you think that will make me? I am terrified...but....more than that...I have hope that somehow together we can do this......"

Her hand falling from his face to rest against his chest as her head shifted and lips brushed lightly against his neck, trailing a series of soft kisses upward toward his ear......lips brushing against such...as she spoke in a soft, heated little whisper.....

"I need you....now and for the rest of my life....You are a part of me......"

She then took his hand and placed it upon her chest, just over the heavy beating of his heart as she nipped softly at that sensitive spot on his neck.......

[Cain]

"I know baby...I did not have much of a family either. But you are a good man...I see that in you and you will be an excellent father to OUR children...."

Cain lowered his eyes once more. A good man, huh? Someone who sought for nothing but adrenaline and thrill, a man who more often than not rather exchanged fists than words, a man who goes home bandaged or bleeding most of the time. Yeah, he really was a role model. He gritted his teeth then, knowing that this was going to be a bigger change to him that he would ever begin to comprehend. He would let his eyes wander towards her slightly inflated stomach. The twins. Cain had to wonder, could he really make time for himself to take care of such, when he himself was having a hard time adapting to his new life still?

"I did not have much of a family either. I had bad things happen to me....I cannot even sleep at night for gods sake....What kind of Mother do you think that will make me? I am terrified...but....more than that...I have hope that somehow together we can do this......"

Then, her lips found her neck, a shiver running down Cain's spine. Zen had been with Cain long enough to know and remember his sensitive spots, and she was totally taking advantage of that knowledge. His eyes closed reflexively, as she allowed her lips to trail upwards to his ear, a soft uncontrollable moan escaping the man's lips as he allowed Zen to play with him then. Once more, he was under her control. Another heated whisper, and she would place his hand upon her heartbeat, feeling the rhythmic beat of the organ as she continued to nibble upon his ear. At that, almost a whisper, he would answer, his hand coming up from her chest to her chin.

"... Then, together, we'll make it through this. No more doubts, no more worries, no more trouble. As long as we have each other, we'll keep pushing forward..."

And with a soft smile, he would reach forward, his lips finding hers, and before he knew it, the gentle kiss turned into one of raw passion, his lips enveloping hers in their moist grip.

[Zen]

She smiled lightly against his flesh as she heard those words. She knew of why he fought, she knew that he had been trying to fill that void left behind by his Father's uncaring nature. But she had hoped that her and the twins would be able to fill that void.

Perhaps his words were enough to give her more hope than she should entertain. Still scared he would leave her, as was the case with most teen boys in this situation....But none the less, she was powerless against him as he pressed his lips to her own. That kiss turning to one of pure passion as she parted her lips and let her tongue dance across his own, before seeking to break the barrier and caress his own tongue in turn....

A gentle whimper, begging of her love to take her, to make love to her as he had so many times before. She had never been with another besides him, and never did she wish to have it any other way. No regret lay within her from what they had done, and as she continued to kiss him, her hand fell upon his chest, gripping his shirt and tugging him closer to her petite frame.

Finally she broke that kiss, her breathing ragged as she let those almond hues look up to him. They had their nights as of late where it had been sex. Just the simple act in which it was nothing more than lust filled passion driving them, but she wanted more tonight. She wanted him, as the night they had met, the slow caresses and the gentle nature in which he seemed to memorize her body with every warm brush of his fingers to her flesh.

"I love you Cain, with all my heart, and all of my soul....I need you, now and always...Please....Make love to me like the night we met....I need to feel that connection with you, to reassure me that you will not leave."

She bit her lower lip, admitting to him her biggest fear as she nuzzled her head into his neck a gentle nip applied to the flesh there as she pressed her body to his.....

"Let me fill that emptiness you once fought to fill. Let me be your purpose and reason, as you are mine."

It was all she could think to say, to reach into his heart and try and rub away some of the doubt he had about himself. She believed in him, and only hoped that one day that would be enough.

Finally those lips returned to his, her hand coming up to gently caress those silken fingertip across his cheek, she was so unclear in her emotional state as to what love for him meant. But she would let him figure that out and not push him on the matter. No, tonight, she only needed her Cain, the man she had met, who had saved her life in more ways than he could ever imagine. Not the School Captain, or the fighter, or the man with the need for the thrill of the fight....But instead the man who he truly was, the gentle lover, the protector, the one who made her feel safe and made her laugh...The man he himself could not see......

[Cain]

And as the time passed, the passion in their kiss grew, ever causing a sharp burn of lust on Cain's lips, their tongues finding each other in the field of saliva and lips. He felt her pulling him closer to her body, and he would do like-wise, his arms going around her as he held her closer to his, more than half of their body now in contact with the other's. His eyes were closed, his body having remembered Zen's body that he longer had to see to know where he was touching. And then, she pulled away, Cain's eyes opening as he looked at her almond hues.

"I love you Cain, with all my heart, and all of my soul....I need you, now and always...Please....Make love to me like the night we met....I need to feel that connection with you, to reassure me that you will not leave."

Cain smiled softly, looking deep into hers, the silent answer being more than what Zen could ever want as she leaned forward and nipped his neck, another soft moan escaping the man's lips as he leaned his head forward. Then, his eyes caught the sight of something that snapped Cain back to reality, his hand moving forward to land on her lower abdomen.

"Can we even do this? I mean... You're pregnant..."

Cain replied, his head turning so that he looked into hers. As much as he wanted it, his responsibility now as a man was taking over his desires as a man himself. A strong will? No. He was just one clueless individual. Of course he was not sure about this thing. He never had someone to teach him all this kind of teenage pregnancy shit. Not even the teachers, for they couldn't care less.

He was simply wandering if they should be doing this now. Wouldn't they be, like, disturbed if they did this? And there were twins too. That meant less the space. So, what?

Yeah, Cain was one clueless and confused man.

[Zen]

She smiled against his flesh as she heard that moan. Loving the way it sounded and knowing that she alone knew of that spot...But then he stopped, pulling back to look at her confused and then noting his eyes going down to her stomach and back up.

Then came the question, and she smiled at the thought of having asked her doctor the same thing. As embarrassing as it was....Nodding softly, she bit her lip and lifted her hand to rest against his cheek.

"Yes baby. Its fine. I already asked the doctor and everything. So please...Make love to me?"

She nit her lower lip once more, just the corner in that nervous manner she could not get rid of....Her head tilting once more and lips pressing to his neck....a few soft kisses given and another gentle nip before she breathed out against him.....

"Please baby...."

A gentle whimper escaping her as she practically begged the man who held her for what she so desired. She could not help it. They had both been so busy and everything that, well, yeah......

Slowly her body would shift within his lap, her hand straying down his chest slowly and then his stomach, eventually sliding under his shirt so that she could brush her fingers against his flesh, nails dragging slowly against him.....

Just her way of trying to break him down...cause yeah....she was wantin' some lovin' big time.