Slipping Away ( Mischa )

[Ceraphine Davis]

K[/size]ev had done so good at hiding everything thus far. She had hidden the black outs, the lapses of memory, the sleepless nights the headaches the voices....everything.....But in doing so, she had distanced herself from Mischa...and it was killing her......

Mischa had been bed ridden...Due to her clumsy nature and what not, it was just better for the baby....And though Kev wanted so badly to go to her...to hold her..She had been staying in the guest room......

Leaving Mischa alone in their bed they had once shared together was the hardest thing she had ever done, but she was scared...scared she could hurt her...hurt the baby......Something Kev could never live with.....

Tonight was another sleepless night.....though she felt tired, she laid there in her underwear and tank top, eyes cast out the window at the night sky. So much had happened in her life, and though she was only two doors down from the woman she loved, Kevala once more felt completely alone.....

Staring at the stars that filled the sky, she felt a heated tear slip free from her eye and roll down her cheek, only succeeding in making her growl.

No! She could not go to her....Mischa was safe, and given that she had been so sick the first part of the pregnancy, she had actually understood....Though, Kevala knew that sooner or later things would have to change...something was happening, inside her that she seemed to be able to remember yet at the same time could not put her finger on......She was craving something...and she had yet to find it.....blood had not satisfied the urge...the cuts to her arm showed that.......and though she knew that blood of another was best, she refused to do that....No....she would just suffer.....

Curling onto her side, she turned her eyes to a picture of Mischa that laid upon the bedside table...a soft whimper escaping her before she buried her face in the pillow....muffling the sounds of her tears as she cried softly........Lost.....Alone.....just as she had always been destined to be...........

[Mischa Badoer]

OH

MY

GOD!

I have been lying in this bloody bed for far too bloody long.... AND WHERE THE BLOODY EFF WAS KEVALA!?

Hormones?

MMHMM

She slid off her bed and had her hand cup her stomach. She could see the change that had occurred. She was the fattest she had ever been in her life. Mischa was a rather thin girl and even as a child people thought she was beyond fragile... her limbs were still somewhat gangly, but they had a bit more meat on them and now she had a pot belly. So yeah... she didn't look like herself.

After awhile of looking at the lump under her baggy tee-shirt in the mirror and snuck out the bedroom door. She wasn't supposed to leave because knowing her.. she would slip on an ominous roller skate, fall down the stairs and out the front door onto the street with oncoming traffic.

But luckily none of them roller skate.

Now Mischa was tip toeing in the hallway and approached the guest room. For some damn reason Kev was distancing herself. Mischa thought that her being a demanding preggo carrying their baby would change the situation and they could have lots of cuddles and bowls of chocolate ice cream.

MMMMMM ice cream.

So after getting two bowls of ice cream she returned to the bedroom. Was it a good idea to give Kevala sugar? No... was it a good idea for Mischa to be eating sugar and raising her glucose level whilst pregnant? No... but one could break the rules just this once.

MISCHA WANTED KEVY AND ICE CREAM TIME!

She opened the door by lifting her foot off the ground and smacking the door knob in a weird way so it flicked open and at the same time she gave it a shove with her foot...it swung open slightly and the door tapped the wall quietly.

She saw Kevala laying on the bed, but the pillow muffled out the evidence of her crying so Mischa wasn't aware of Kevala's saddened state.

"I come baring chocolate...and luuuve!" she said with that very dorky smile and voice of hers as she sat down on the bed next to kev. She held out a bowl waiting for the girl to part from the pillow.

[Ceraphine Davis]

Being only two doors down, she felt the strengthened emotions of Mischa every night. It was the only way she could be close to the girl, and tonight was aggravation, then longing, then hunger......then the emotions faded slightly.......

Grrrr....She was was so not supposed to be out of bed.......

But then they came back and an onslaught of pouty and hungry and .....MIEN? Before she even heard the door tap against the wall she knew that Mischa was coming, giving her time to silence the sobs that had been escaping her....

Though it was only when Mischa sat upon the bed, offering out ice cream, that Kevala knew she should not have, but despite herself, she turned her head, just enough to peek out at the bowl.......


MMMMM....Icecream.......

GOD DAMNIT!

Now she was getting the cravings to! Fucking emotions! Using the pillow to wipe her eyes, she slowly turned to sit up, eyes falling over Mischa and her heart aching......Emotions filling the room.

Fucking bracelet!

She hurried to take it off, laying it on the bedside table as the emotions faded from the room, hopefully before Mischa had picked up on them. Forcing a smile onto her lips, she turned back and took the bowl, soon taking it and settling it in her lap as she looked at the other girl a bit disapproving.....

"Baby you should not be out of bed...You know that you are .......well.....clumsy........and the baby......"

Her tone was trying to be sweet yet held that scolding nature to it....Still she took up the spoon and began to eat the icecream, trying so hard not to reach out and touch the other girl......

It was a good while before she would speak, setting the bowl down onto the table beside her bracelet.....and then keeping her eyes on her hands in her lap.

"What are you doing here baby?"

She sighed, her black locks falling down about her face to hide the tired and worn out look her dull blue eyes held......No longer did they shimmer with the light, nor did they seem to sparkle with emotion......There was just a lack of emotion there.....nothing but.....numbness..........

[Mischa Badoer]

Mischa sat on the bed with her large and dorky smile as she stirred her ice cream into ICE CREAM SOUP!

Mischa tried to ignore the fact Kevala was scolding her for leaving the bed, because quite frankly... laying in bed for that long is bloody hell. She didn't want to lay in bed all the time unless she had a disease... and she didn't! It was just her clumsiness that was holding her back.

"What are you doing here baby?"

Mischa looked over at Kev with the smile and shoved a huge spoon for ice cream in her mouth. After mushing it about in her mouth she swallowed and would answer her question.

"I missed having my nights with you. I'm bedridden because I'm clumsy...I don't have anything contagious so I don't know why you are avoiding me... My clumsiness won't be magically triggered if you are laying in the bed next to me... that and I can't keep an eye out for you... I don't even know if the whole Sasha mishap is at bay. I can't tell if she is gone if you are sleeping two doors away from me..."

She shoveled another spoonful into her mouth... she was trying hard not to say MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM in an embarrassing manner so she was just MMMing in her mind with slight nodding of her head and she sucked on the ice cream.

"So lets enjoy this night together.... to make up for the fact we hadn't had any since I knocked myself up..." she scooped up some ice cream and would deliver it to Kevala's mouth. She had her own ice cream, but she couldn't eat it, it being on the nightstand and all. Besides.....MISCHA LOVELLS TO SHARE WITH HER KEVY POOH!

[Ceraphine Davis]

Kev took the bite offered and swallowed it down fast enough, she didnt even bother to go near the topic of Sasha because she knew the truth......Mischa did not....And that was why she slept two doors away....

Brushing her tongue over her lower lip, she waited silently, motioning for Mischa to finish up.............

And of course, she would wait.....once the girl had done so, she took the bowl from her and set it down beside her own...A small hand reaching out and lightly pushing Mischa down onto her back on the bed so that Kev could curl up and rest her head lightly against the slight bulge beginning in the other girls stomach.....

Yes, she was trying to be tough, but Mischa knew how much of a baby Kev could be....and now, with the girl so close, it was too hard not to be....

Nuzzling into her softly, her hair fanning out over that spot in which the baby rested....Kev closed her eyes and sighed...

"It is safest for you baby. In case she does come back at night.....But know that you are my life....I love you....forever..."

The right thing to do, would be to say goodbye, but she could not do that....she was selfish and wished to hold onto the only good thing she would ever have in her life a little bit longer....Until she could not do such any longer.

[Mischa Badoer]

Mischa finished up her ice cream slowly... though her definition of eating ice cream slowly is a lot faster than most people would think... Mischa ate a lot...and fast. So right when she got that last little bit of ice cream Kev took the bowl away and sat it near her own bowl...which Mischa was eying out before Kevala laid her on her back.

The ice cream can wait =D

Nvm it can't... it will be long past it's solidarity state!

Oh well

CUDDLEZ!


"It is safest for you baby. In case she does come back at night.....But know that you are my life....I love you....forever..."

Mischa didn't comment. There were more things that could harm the baby. Kevala was just focusing on the one thing, and that one thing was keeping them apart. Mischa loved her too and it wasn't fair that Kev kept keeping her distance.

Her hand came up to stroke her hair.

"I love you too Kev... so much that I would really like it if you slept in the same bed as me..."

Mischa could be as stubborn as Kev could be a suck.

"At least tonight? I'm not going to wait nine months until we can share a bed... I'm far too impatient!"

[Ceraphine Davis]

Kev closed her eyes, she could not deny that blasted woman no matter how much she tried, and before she could stop herself, her hand was trailing slowly up Mischa's thigh...Her body shifting slowly to crawl up the other girls and stopping just as her lips hovered above the other girls.....

"You will always be my true weakness..."

It was the truth, in more ways than could have been understood at the moment, but right now....they would just have to be taken as face value.....Pressing her lips to Mischa's she brushed her tongue slowly over the girl's lower lip, moaning softly at the taste of her before she pulled back. Her long black locks falling about them both...

"I have not spoiled you in some time. What is it you wish of me?"

She tilted her head and trailed her kisses over the other girls neck, slowly, sensually..her hand reaching up to the top of the girl's thigh teasing fingers brushing against her there as she nips lovingly at her neck...waiting now for a reply.

[Mischa Badoer]

Mischa returned the kiss that Kev delivered. Yeah the mood was easily set just then. It had been a long time since they were together in this way and Kev confirmed the truth her last statement and question.

"To have you for the whole night..."

Mischa smiled whilst biting her lower lip as Kevala nipped at her neck. Kevala always teased her with the touch of her fingers. It always sparked Mischa's interest and made cause for wanting more from her. Mischa's hands begged for the touch of Kevala's skin as the blades of her fingers brushed Kevala's cheek as the girl kissed Mischa's neck.

All Mischa had to do was beg and Kev would cave.

1) Kev shared the same feelings so she couldn't help herself.
2) Kev usually lets Mischa get what she wants thus far making her a spoiled little Italian girl!

Mischa placed a hand on Kev's shoulder as she pushed her onto her side, then back. Mischa climbed on top and smiled warmly down at Kevala. Mischa's eyes stared into Kev's and she felt bad that Kev was crying. Yeah she didn't witness her actually crying, but one could tell when someone just finished... especially when she knows her so well. Mischa was just trying to make her feel better... by making her feel better at the same time. She leaned in and kissed her on the forehead, just for sincerity before her lips found Kev's. Her hands trailed up her side to the side of her rib cage.

"What do you say?"

[Ceraphine Davis]

As she was rolled onto her back and Mischa came atop her, all she could think is ~Damn that woman~......But none the less she had spent two year spoiling the little Italian girl and giving her everything her heart desired.......

How could she deny her now. With a soft sigh she reached up and traced her fingers over the girls cheek, her leg shifting to bring her thigh up between Mischa's and rubbing up against her, feeling the heat of her body and her desire which only proved to increase Kev's....

"I could never deny you baby...."

With that her hand reached up, gripping lightly at the hair at the back of Mischa's head and pulling her into a kiss as she moaned out softly. She had pushed herself too far, gone too long without her Mischa and her loving arms and now she was hungry for it....starving in fact ......That kiss growing deep and passionate as she growled lightly.....

Not in a bad way though..only showing her need....it was a strange thing about Kev that she did...her way of saying MIEN without really doing so.......Though..not may knew that about her......In face, the only one who had ever gotten close enough to know was Mischa.......

Her hand coming up, brushing fingers teasingly across the girls breast as she pulled back and looked at the girl with those crimson swirls of desire in her icy hues.....

"You are mine....No matter what...you will always be mine....."

It was all she would say before she once more pressed that heated kiss to her lovers lips.....Thigh rocking upward into her once more...teasing...wanting to hear her sweet little Mischa's sounds of pleasure and need.....

[Mischa Badoer]

More and more Mischa's lips hungered for Kev's. Everytime she felt Kevala touch her or push her body against Mischa's...It only made Mischa strive for more and feel the need to invite Kevala into her own ecstasy.

A hand slipped down to Kev's hip only to slide up again, but under her shirt. She pushed down and against her to feel as much pressure as she could along with feel as many curves of Kevala's as possible! Her hand felt the shape of Kevala's breasts as her tongue found itself massaging Kevala's. Next was taking off Kev's shirt. Mischa trailed kissed down her chest until she sat up on her knees and pulling off her own shirt. She looked down at her fiance with a sly smile before leaning down again.

Yupyup it sure has been awhile...And to think Mischa was just going to in to the room to have a chatskies with ice cream. Apparently the two of them can't do something as simple as a conversation without getting down and doin' the naughty.

(OOC: Wow this is sooo horrible I am ashamed!!! I can expand later I'm just not all up to par this mornin')