Understanding Demons ( Mischa:Mature )

[Ceraphine Davis]

I[/size]t had been a week since the night Kev had hit bottom with her drinking problem. So far, she had managed to stay out of trouble, though now, the pain she felt was no longer just something that came and went, she now suffered inside constantly, the noise of the voices only silencing when she went for her daily run or when she was wrapped up in the arms of the woman she loved.

Not that anyone could tell...If there was one thing that Kevala was good at, it was hiding pain. She had done it all her life, to the point that she actually craved that addicting feeling from time to time....She knew, that deep down Mischa knew.....but said nothing.....It was a silent knowledge that they both held and that they both worried over constantly.

Though the fact that Mischa had not left her, that she had stayed by her side through all of the ups and downs, only proved to confirm the love that Kev had for the girl in her heart.

But Kev was slipping....she knew this and she had a feeling that some part of Mischa knew it as well.....It killed her to know that someday she could disappear, just like that, and lose everything she had in her life....Everything that meant anything to her......

Still, that did not stop her from dreaming about the future, and planning for things that she knew she may never get to enjoy.....It was the only hope that she had left in her mind and she would not let it slip away...Not yet....Not while she could help it....

During her stay at the hospital, she had brought up a subject with Mischa that they had not really gotten into detail over....A furthering of their relationship....a bond that they could never break no matter what may come to pass in the future.....But Kev knew that it was something that took time to think on, and she would give Mischa all the time in the world she needed......

Tonight though, Kev had to get something off her chest....She knew that Mischa wished to help her, and though the thought of letting the girl so close to the darker side of her scared Kevala beyond all belief, she could not bare to have Mischa feeling so helpless...A feeling she had too many times in her life.....

So she had made up her mind...Tonight she would reveal the truth of where the other two personalities had come from and answer any question her fiance might have over the matter.....If the girl truly wanted to help, she would need all the information she could manage....

So, with the twins settled down for the night, Kev would make her way to their bedroom, drawing in a deep breath before reaching her small hand up to push open the door......

Eyes scanning the room for Mischa as she made her way to the bed....taking a seat upon the edge of such as her hands gripped the blanket.....She would bring up what she wished to discuss, and if Mischa opposed to the topic then that would be the end of it......

"Mischa......Do you really wish to help me? Because I warn you, the part of me you want to know is a part that is darker than you could imagine....."

Yes, Kev had done things in her past that she did not fully remember thanks to Sasha and Katie, things she knew the outcome of and regretted to this day....But she would wait now, holding her breath almost as she closed her eyes...Praying deep down that Mischa would say no....That they could simply lay down together, and Kev could wrap her arms around the other girl and forget this whole mess....

But she knew Mischa better than that......No matter how much she might have wished for something different..........

[Mischa Badoer]

Mischa sat in bed. Her back was leaning against the headboard of the bed as her eyes were fixated on the book before her. Wuthering Heights was one of her favorite books. The girl always read it...Wished that Heathcliff and Catherine had gotten together. Such a tragic ending, but no matter how much it made her sad... no matter how many times she read it... She could never put it down.

The door opened and her eyes lifted from the pages to see Kev sit on the edge of the bed. Mischa observed the uneasy feeling the girl must have been going through, a sign was how she clenched the blankets. It must have been about the baby issue. Last time it was brought up, Mischa was in a bad mood from staying up all night and being worried sick.

"Mischa......Do you really wish to help me? Because I warn you, the part of me you want to know is a part that is darker than you could imagine....."

Nevermind....

Mischa put the book down on the night stand that she moved from the studio into the room. As much as she liked the gesture Kev did... the house still needed furnishing not just one room >.<

"Kev... You know the answer to that." she said in a sincere voice. "As I said a thousand times 'you can tell me anything'. Key, baby?" If Kev looked over at Mischa, she would see her arms raise as her fingers curled in a gesture for her to "come give me a hug".

[Ceraphine Davis]

K[/size]ev knew how much Mischa loved that book...she could not count the number of times she had found her reading it.....But still....right now just...yeah....It was a rare moment that Kev was feeling open to and honestly...she felt like if she did not do this now she never would...

Turning to face Mischa as she spoke, she greedily took the gesture to go to her, crawling across the bed and curling herself up against her...Her body down just enough so that her head could rest on Mischa's stomach....

As she drew in a deep and shakey breath, she began to trace her finger idly over the blanket...a nervous habit she could not shake.....Finally, she spoke.....Gods...She never thought she would be doing this......

"If...you wish to help...you have to know..where they came from....when they came....."

She was laid so that she faced away from Mischa...Not sure she could look upon her as she spoke right now....yet still needing the comfort that being next to the other girl brought.....

"I think...the first time I ever heard Sasha...in my head.....was when I was 8....and the foster family I was with....tried to kill me.....That's where the scars on my back came from......Not from some accident...."

She closed her eyes.....flashes of that night filtering through her mind as she bit down upon her lower lip.....feeling her tooth cutting into her flesh and yet not stopping....the screams of that night still echoed in her mind....the blood...the panic....the pain......

"But...she did not appear....on her own...until the day I was.....When I was 14......."

She growled, mad at herself for not being able to get the words out....not being able to tell the woman she loved the one secret she had kept from everyone........

"I was......raped..."

She barely got the words out in a soft whisper, but there they were...her entire body trembling as she curled up tighter......Ashamed of her past...ashamed of lying..of hiding it.....

More memories..more flashes of things that had happened......Yet these were short lived...for at some point....Kev had lost it...and that is when things went really bad......

Yet she stopped.....wanting to let it sink in....wanting to try and cope with what she had just said...for both of them.....

[Mischa Badoer]

Kevala crawled over to Mischa as expected. She felt her head rest on her stomach and Mischa's hand came up to stroke her hair. She played with it to try and calm the girl down from what ever was on her mind. Now that Kevala started to speak Mischa got more and more nervous.

"I was......raped..."

Mischa's hand stalled as she heard the last word of that statement. It rang in her ears and stung her deep down. It was around six years ago... but it was still bad news to here. Mischa didn't like to have thoughts of someone harming Kevala. This girl had gone through so much..She would actually expect her to be more "crazy" than everyone thinks. Kevala is clearly stronger than she is making herself out to be.

Mischa didn't know what to say at this kind of information. What was anyone supposed to say!? She was sure someone would be able to think of something, but Mischa sure as hell couldn't think up one bloody word to say to the girl laying on her stomach. Mischa's hand started moving again, pulling the girl's hair back and tucking it behind her ears.

"I'm...sorry.." she sighed thinking of how painful this conversation could be for Kev, "I hate that all this had to happen to you. Hopefully life will look up. Hopefully I will be the one that can help it turn it's head to the sky. I really want everything to be better for you. You deserve better, love."

[Ceraphine Davis]

O[/size]nce she heard those words she would let out a heavy breath, feeling the heat of her tears beginning to sting behind her closed eyes....Her hand gripping the blanket as she savored every touch of Mischa's hand to her hair....

"Do you not see that from the moment I met you...my life became perfect?"

She would finally roll over, her head still on the other girl's stomach as she looked up at her now through tear filled icy hues....their shade a near white ......due to the intensity of her her emotions in this moment........

"I was once asked..If I could go back in time and change ONE thing in my past...what would it be?"

She licked away the blood on the inside of her mouth as her small, trembling hand came up and brushed softly along Mischa's neck...the gentlest of touches upon her flesh as she shook her head.....

"I would not change one thing....Not one moment of my past would I change...Because if not for all the bad....I would not have you now....."

She closed her eyes then, her hand drawing away as she drew in a deep breath once more....

"But I know that I have been asking too much of us too quickly...and I am sorry....But you have to understand....When you feel as though what time you have is slipping away from you.....You wish to make every moment count..."

She had done a lot of thinking...and honestly,she could not let anything happen to Mischa...she would not......And she had been asking too much...She knew that now.....

"I was wrong to ask so much of you...I know now that it is not the best idea to think of having a child....I am sorry Love...."

She then shifted, settling upon her hands and knees and moving up enough to place a soft kiss upon the other girl's neck...just below her ear......

A soft whisper slipping forth as she brushed her hand down Mischa's side, slowly, fingers lightly gripping at her.....

"You are all I need....forever....I am crazy to ever ask for more...."

A soft nip given to her flesh as Kevs hand slid down beneath the blanket...seeking out the soft flesh of the other girls thigh and brushing lightly upon the inside of such.....

[Mischa Badoer]

She didn't want the kid...though it was obvious she still wanted the kid! The thing is...Mischa wanted the kid too... but was it smart to get a kid now? Now say Kid five times fast.

kidkidkidkidkid.

Anyway.

Mischa was about to comment when Kevala started to kiss her inner thigh. Damn!! She had the power of changing the subject...and GOD DAMN it was a strong power. Not fair...Not fair at all.

Man, if Kev was a guy...I would assume he was just trying to seduce me so he could "accidentally" knock me up.

Mischa bit her lower lip as her hand slid under the blankets and started playing with Kevala's hair. Her foot slid up and her toes curled at the feel of the kisses Kevala that made Mischa burn with lust. Kev was good...

I'm am soooo lucky to have Kev...

(OOC: sorry I didn't know what to do....Kev's head is down too far! XDXD)

[Ceraphine Davis]

K[/size]ev could not help but moan at the hand that now brushed through her hair, her one weak spot that made her weak every time....Her lips trailing upward, kissing along the inner part of Mischa's left thigh, only to break away with a gentle nip to her soft and intoxicating flesh.....Though as always, hungry for more, Kevs lips found their way to the opposite thigh, gentle brushes of her lips followed by teasing strokes of her tongue.....Upward, slowly, her hands working to push themselves up and under the shirt Mischa wore, brushing her fingers against her sides......

Finally Kev reached the spot she had been hungering for, the spot that she knew would drive her love crazy......yet she did nothing but brush her nose against that sweet little spot, though the clothing, and feeling the heat against her flesh and bringing a grin to her lips....

She then pulled back, hands pushing up that shirt so that her lips could now trail upward along the other girls stomach, slow, gentle kisses, savoring every bit of flesh as she shivered out at the pleasure now coursing through her veins...

Finally those hands came up, fingers barely brushing aginst the soft curves of Mischa's breasts....a teasing manner in which Kev was master at.......Yet her lips did not stop...only moved in their path, down and over the girl's side.....all the while her body pressing into Mischa's....making sure that when she could, her knee fell between the girl's thighs, brushing into her, rubbing softly as she growled out softly as she rose up, her hands falling to Mischa's side as she gripped her waist tightly, her knee rubbing inward just a bit harder as she brought her lips to the girls ear....

Her heated breath falling over her flesh a she spoke in a possessive and yet lust filled tone....Sultry in manner and full of her desire and need for the girl now pinned beneath her.....A single statement....a heated whisper.......

"Tell me you are mine......."

She then dropped her head down to bite ever so lightly onto the girls neck....ears listening intently for the reply she needed....she craved.......Hands continuing to pin the girl to the bed beneath her as her knee worked up and down now between those luscious thighs....

Another little growl..followed by a soft moan.....Kev was in one of her moods tonight....And that was made clear by the manner in which she moved and spoke.....

She was possessive.....and she knew Mischa was hers...but she wanted to hear that soft voice break free and proclaim it to her....to give her what she wanted....

[Mischa Badoer]

(OOC: I shouldn't be given a thread like this when listening to this and this. XD)

Mischa let out a quick moan of passion as she felt Kevala's face between her legs. Mischa's head tilted back as her eyes closed and her tongue flicked out to lick her lower lip before biting down on it. She felt Kev trailing up her torso almost teasing her with the way her hands worked at her chest.

"Tell me you are mine......."


Mischa whimpered to the pleasure of feeling her teeth biting at her neck. Mischa's hand grabbed hold of Kevala's hair and tugged her up from her neck. She was trying a more rough approach... but hey..Mischa was in the mood...and sometimes that would mean acting like and animal.

Mischa didn't need to answer the question, because it was obvious; though, she did given the current situation.

"You own..." she leaned in and licked Kevala's lower lip. "every..." her lips were now pressing against hers. Their breaths were now mingling "last bit" she said against her lips. "of me." Mischa would place her hands against Kev's shoulder's pushing her up and away from Mischa's lips. Mischa would sit up and position herself so she would be sitting on her knees. Mischa would slide off her shirt and there was no need for a removal of a bra..'cause she was in bed. So now she was just in a pair of *cough*superman*cough* booty shorts. Now Mischa pulled Kev's shirt off..and her bra. So by now they would both be kneeling on the bed...But Mischa would press her body to Kev's. Her hand would slide down Kevala's back and underneath the material of clothing she had that covered her bottom. Her hand gripped and pulled the girl close so now their pelvis' were pressing close to each other. Mischa's breaths became labored and husky. Mischa never really acted like this.. but after all that was happening she needed to let out some steam.

What better way?

Mischa's hand that wasn't under Kevs pants would run along down her back, digging her nails in the girl's skin as Mischa sucked on Kev's neck. She looked into Kev's eyes. Lust filled Mischa's expression as a sinister smile came to her face. "I did what you asked now you have to do what I want... It's only fair." she said with a breathy laugh that followed. Her hand pulled down her pants as she kissed Kevala, her tongue forcing itself through and passed Kevala's lips to massage her tongue. Now Mischa grabbed Kev's hair and tugged hopefully forcing the girl to lay on her back. Mischa would climb in between her legs as her hands gripped Kevala's thighs in closer to Mischa's hips. "I want you..." she said giving an elongated thrust and applying the pressure so it was too much to bare. "To scream..." Mischa's hands grabbed Kev's wrists tightly and pinned the to the bed roughly above her head. Now Mischa bit the flesh of Kevala's breast before licking the delicate skin in painfully teasing circles. Now her hand released Kev's left wrist and slid down the length of Kevala's body and in between her legs..........

[Ceraphine Davis]

T[/size]hat whimper of pleasure was enough to get Kev more and more heated, her passion rising as each labored breath of Mischa escaped her........Her teeth grazing against the delicate flesh once more, fighting the urge to bite...She would never do that...not to Mischa...but that did not mean that she did not crave it....She could not help herself.

She closed her eyes, her body trembling as she fought back that lust for the smallest taste of her lover's blood.....Just imagining the taste of it was enough to get her heart racing even more....But she resisted with everything she had...Only to feel that hand grip her hair, tugging her head back and causing her to whimper out softly in pleasure. It was her weakness, to feel a hand gripping her hair, pulling...It was ecstasy to her....Then, she was face to face with Mischa, those icy hues opening, their shade a bit darker, as lust filled her gaze......

It was not like Mischa to be rough, and though Kev had started it, she had not planned on the girl actually following through.....It was intoxicating....The look that her love held in that gaze as she held Kev there, her tongue flicking over Kevala's lower lip....

Those heated words.....spoke so slowly, so teasingly....Yet soon enough, Kevala got the reply she had been craving.....Another heavy tremble sent through her as she savored the words in her mind......

Mine....

A possessive nature filling her, as it had so many times before...though right now, it was more primal, more lustful....But then she was pushed back, settled upon her knees as she watched Mischa rise...That hungry gaze following every move of the girls hands as she removed her shirt.....Not able to resist the urge to lick her lips with anticipation....It took much will power to remain where she was....

But she wanted to see just what Mischa had in store...Just what the girl would do now....Kev needed to know what the girl would do........And then, that heavenly touch was upon her, pulling her shirt up and over her head, and then removing her bra.....

She bit her lower lip, blood filling her mouth as she was jerked toward the girl, those hands now grasping her under the shorts she wore and pulling her closer to Mischa, their bodies pressing into one another....Allowing the girl full control....

Then the other hand would come to her back, nails biting into her flesh and causing her to moan out as the pain of it over took her....It was heaven and she could not help but let her eyes fall closed once more...her own hands gripping Mischa's sides...her head tilting to the side as those lips captured the flesh of her neck, sucking.....teasing...bringing more and more pleasure to her as she whimpered out in need of the girl who now held her so closely.....

But again she pulled back, and as Kev looked into her eyes, she could not help but note the lust in her eyes and that sinister little smile she held on her lips.

Mm...she wanted to play....and Kevala was more than ready for play time.....Biting her lip and her gaze shifting to one of something near submission....Yes, letting the other have power over her as she heard those words leave the girls lips....Only inticing Kev and her curiousity more and more.....Followed by that laugh.....Send Kevs mind racing with thoughts as to what Mischa could want of her.....What she could.....

Those lips pressed to her own, tongue forcing past her lips and brushing against hers as her eyes fell shut and she moaned out softly into that kiss.....

Then another hand in her hair, pulling her back, shooting pleasure through every bit of her body.....She of course complied, laying there as her hands were pinned above her head....The words.....enough to push her passion to a point it had not been in some time......As her eyes flickered once more to crimson and then back again........

A bite?

Gods that was heaven to her as she felt the thrust against her now bare lower half.....Then the licking, the teasing.....The trailing hand......It would not be long ......before Mischa got what she wanted....Many...many times over......

TIME SKIP FOR PG-13NESS[/size]

It was about an hour, maybe two.......hell she did not know....at some point time had become lost to her....but now, they both laid there upon the bed, the sheet covering their bodies as Kevala struggled to catch her breath....sweat covering her petite form as her black hair laid out across the pillow, bits of it sticking to her face as she closed her eyes and brushed her hand over Mischa's soft flesh.....

"I love you baby........More than words...could ever....say....."

Her hand reaching out toward the night stand as she pulled open the drawer and reached in, pulling out a package with a ribbon wrapped about it .....Placing it directly in front of Mischa....

She said nothing...simply waited....should the girl choose to open it, then she would find a first addition, hard cover, leather bound copy of Wuthering Heights, along with a credit card and a note....

I am sorry for everything baby....I sold some of my art stuff to get you this, and have put back enough for you to go and buy back all the furniture you desire.....

I love you.....Always and Forever.....

Kev

It was a small sacrifice to make up for all the wrong she had done....She only hoped the girl liked it as much as she wished she would......

[Mischa Badoer]

Mischa laid on the bed, catching her breath from what just happened. She never really acted like that and it was very refreshing...and just..new. It felt nice and they should probably do it again like that some more >.>

"I love you baby........More than words...could ever....say....."

"As me to you, babe." Mischa smiled looking over to her, then raising a brow when Kevala was reaching over to the night stand. She came back with a present. WTF!?!?!? Man... Kev just loved to give. In more than one way!! *wink wink nudge nudge*(OOC: couldn't help it...) Mischa smiled, though it seemed like a nervous smile...only because she didn't know what the occasion was...... Did she miss something???

She opened the box and found a book...AND NOT JUST ANY BOOK!! She then read the note that was by the credit card. Mischa had a lot of credit cards...Mischa could only facepalm on what Kevala had to do to get this card. Mischa could afford all the furniture she wanted... Kev didn't have to sell what she loves to do. This girl was giving up her own life in order to make Mischa happy... how was Mischa gonna be happy if Kev had nothing but her? Smiling she looked over to Kevala and gave her a kiss.

"I love the book soooooo much!"

Yeah to some it was just a book, but Mischa loved to read and not to mention adored Wuthering Heights.... Mischa had many copies of the book 'cause they managed to get wrecked some way or another...this one she wouldn't want to wreck...first piece of furniture.. a glass case. "This... you...you've done so much for me..." yeah she was trying not to get all emotional. It was really hard she was just too damn happy. Mischa picked up the card and smiled. "I will use this as soon as possible."

More than you know >.>

[Ceraphine Davis]

S[/size]he could not help but smile at the emotions that were not pouring out of Mischa...returning that kiss before she would lay her head back and smile, turning to face the other girl as she brushed her hand against her cheek.

"I just wanted to show you, that I am sorry for all the stress and pain I have caused you...To give you some happiness to start to fix the damage I have caused...Though I am not sure I will ever be able to fully do such."

She sighed and pressed a kiss to Mischa's forehead before turning back to look up to the ceiling...Yes, she knew that Mischa had the money to buy whatever she desired, but Kev had been the one to get rid of the furniture, she had been the one to screw things up, and she was going to be the one to fix it.

Besides, her stuff was just that....stuff...Nothing she could not replace when she sold some more work....Not to mention that in her mind it was more than worth it. She wanted to and that was that.....Yawning softly she would nuzzle into Mischa, kissing lovingly over her neck...Not sexually, just ....Kev was a big snuggler and sorta a baby about it......And now...was snuggle times!!!