It Was Bound To Happen (Devon/Misch/Open)

[Ceraphine Davis]

Kev closed her eyes as she thought of how to answer Devon, but before the chance every came around she felt those arms that had held her so many nights now wrapping about her slender waist....It was bad enough when that happened, but then there came the whisper. That delicate tone, so full of regret and pain....It caused tears to sting at the back of her closed eyelids as she bit harder upon her lower lip.

Just then, when she thought that it could not get worse, she felt a brush of those heavenly lips to her neck, a soft shiver coursing down her spine as she whimpered out softly. Then, just like that, the touch was gone, and for the first time in a very long time Kevala reaslized how cold she was...How empty she was....Did she care for Devon? Yes she did, but at the moment she was so lost that she honestly did not know which way was up.

Opening her eyes, she cast a glance to Mischa, noting her actions and taking in a deep breath. She then turned back to Devon and steadied herself as she spoke.

"The baby....was....our child...That died before it was able to be born..."

She then turned and looked at Mischa once more before casting a glance at Devon.

"Do not leave. I need to calm her down."

No this would be straight before anyone left, but first Mischa needed somebody and it was not in Kevala to let her suffer. So, with that, Kev took a few steps forward and then shrank down to her knees, pressing her palms against the cool earth as she slowly inched her way toward Mischa....

Her eyes going to that hand on her stomach and the necklace she now gripped. As she neared her, she spoke up softly, her tone soothing and caring in nature.

"Mischa...baby...Look at me."

Inching a bit more closely, she would then move to sit directly in front of the other girl, her small hand coming out to brush over the one that Mischa had upon her stomach....

"I thought you hated me because I hated me in that moment. I had put you there because of my own selfish actions and I had caused the baby to die. I hurt you, and though I understand that I was overprotective, I need you to see that causing you emotional pain was the one thing that I could not live with myself for. I have been hurt so many times and I turned around and did to you....the one person who ever loved me as me...what everyone had done to me.

I felt as though I did not deserve you. That you needed to be rid of me.

Do you remember what I told you in the hospital?"

It was then that Kev would lightly grip the other girl's hand and lift it to rest over her heart....Only it was not for the sake of feeling the heart beat..but instead using the bracelet to allow her emotions to echo out of her and into the other girl who had always been so easily affected by what she felt....

What she would feel was cold emptiness. No happiness, no joy...nothing but pain and suffering......When she had left that room she had told Mischa that she was leaving every part of her that was ever happy or had ever been good and normal...And she and she had meant it.

She had abandoned herself to a life of misery and pain....Figuring it was all she could really do to make up for what she had done....

"I meant every word...I left everything with you....took nothing for myself...."

She then reached out with her free hand and brushed the girls hair out of her face.....

"Do not be scared baby....No matter what life may throw at us...Know that there is no limit to what I would do for you....I would walk to the ends of the earth and through the fires of hell to save you.....That will never change...."

She only hoped that she could reach the woman she had been so in love with. Help her to see that Kev still loved her..No matter how things had changed......Hopefully help her to relieve some of the fear she felt.

[Devon]

Devon didn't realize his choice of words had the potential to stab quite the barb into either woman. Although when in a poor mood, such as confused, conflicted, jealous, and frustrated, he leaned back on his natural instinct to sharpen his words this wasn't one of those times. He was simply too off balance.

Somehow things started getting less weird for a moment, it seemed natural enough for someone to apologize for something they had done. Although the manner at which it was being done raised the sensation of jealousy up a notch, although it was still pressed under frustration.

Then something odd happened again, as the woman stepped back and sat to the ground. He noted that it looked like her knees were shaking, as well as her hands while she reached to her neck. It looked like she was holding a cylinder, and not knowing the woman the way Kevala did he presumed it was a small stash.

His attention was taken by Kevala, who explained finally that the child had been planned to be theirs. But that it died before birth. He put his money on it being the strung out chick being the carrier, as he had certain reasons to seriously doubt that Kevala had been pregnant recently.

But that didn't make the situation any less complicated. Devon held her eyes for the moments she spoke to him, took in their hue, and noted that there was a steadiness in her. While Mischa and Kevala spoke their feelings, Devon and Kevala had naturally begun to built upon the art of nonverbal communication. And so he nodded at the spoken, as well as unspoken, request before she turned to deal with Mischa.

Normally jealousy would've spiked to the point that he was forcd to take action upon seeing Kevala sink to her hands and knees in front of anyone. But her nonverbal communication had conveyed to him that she wasn't doing it as an act of submission, and from the way the woman looked it seemed more like approaching a frightened animal.

Devon stayed a pace away as he listened, but said and did nothing, other then let his presence stay in their awareness.

[Mischa Badoer]

Mischa tried not to watch Kevala make her way to her. At this moment she felt like trash. Begging for a girl and high on cocaine. She didn't want to be addicted to the substance... She had never taken it before in her life... but now when she woke up in the hospital she found out what she did. It doesn't make any sense as to why she would even consider taking them... And now she has an addiction and her area of work has a substantial supply of cocaine and other drugs.

Mischa nodded when Kevala asked if she remembered what she had said to her in the hospital. Her hand was now holding onto the hand Kevala had on her stomach as she felt the emotions Kev was going through when she pressed her hand to her heart. It made Mischa ache to know she was at fault for this.

Nodding Mischa listened to what Kev said. She would then lean in and wrap her arms around Kevala as tight as she could...afraid if she let go she would just be gone. "I want you to be happy, Kev. So... I will give you my happiness.." she would reach into her pocket and pull out the ring. Corny as hell, but yeah.. she grabbed the necklace from around Kev's neck and added her ring to the string before returning it around her neck.

"Just know I never hated you... because just as you hated yourself..I hated myself more for what I did to us and what I did to our child... I just hope someday you can feel better... and the twin's could be happy as well..."

[Ceraphine Davis]

As she felt those arms wrap about her she in turn wrapped her own about Mischa, her head shifting to rest atop the other girls as she closed her eyes, listening to the words that she spoke and feeling her heart breaking with each one....

Then the necklace....It was too much...and Kev felt nothing but guilt...she could not take Mischa's happiness...It would kill her...To know that she had done this to Mischa...Finally she pulled back, her hand coming up to rest against the other girls cheek as she sighed and looked at her with tear filled blue eyes...

"Baby...please...You have to try and not blame yourself...I know, in my heart, that somebody did this to you. I just dont know how....But I promise I will find out..."

She then leaned in, brushing her lips to Mischa's briefly before pulling back...

"I have done so much wrong baby....So much that I have no way to make up for it.....I do not even know who I am anymore...."

With that she pulled back, not far, but enough to break their contact....the entire thing too much for her already broken and dying heart.....She was in such pain and Kev could not fix it.....It tore her apart inside......

Slowly she turned and looked back at Devon....an apologetic look given as sh bit her lower lip softly.

[Devon]

Devon once again was left with that floating sensation, where he seemed disconnected from the situation and a dull pain throbbed in his skull. The emotional baggage being thrown back and forth was reminiscent of someone in Hollywood deciding that it would be fun to combine a tennis match with a soap opera.

Reaching up to his neck he shoved his head to one side, cracking his suddenly stiff and tense joints, and repeated the motion to the other side. With a sigh he drove his bike all the way to where he was, as it would've made a nice seat while he participated in a moment he would've distanced himself if he didn't have a stake in it, and Kev didn't ask him to stay.

In fact the only thing that seemed to keep him from doing just that was yet another shell to add to the rest of the arsenal. Twins. What twins? Seriously, who the hell, what the hell, for fucks sake. Devon was looked up at from Kev's position on the ground.

Devon held her eyes for a few moments, obviously having questions on his mind, and temporarily allowing the timid apologetic look keep him from just storming off from the shit storm. Grunting he nodded, feeling forlorn on top of everything else.

[Mischa Badoer]

It wouldn't make any sense if somebody did this to Mischa... how could someone be involved with something like that? Mischa was down in the pizzaria then..next thing she knew she was in the hospital with the memory of a blurred picture of Kevala and some other girl. Don't ask why she took the drugs... but because it was unexplained, Mischa assumed she wanted to end her life.

Kevala parted and Mischa stared into those pained blue eyes. Kev looked away and Mischa wiped at her own eyes to make them dry. "If you keep blaming yourself what makes you think I can't blame myself?" she said with a small chuckle... She made a slight joke...but it was always Mischa to do something like that at a serious time.

Mischa looked up at Devon... He was probably confused. Just as confused as to why he was here... WHO WAS HEEEEE?!

"Sorry for the bitch fit..." she would say in another joking manner, but towards Devon. "Just...How 'bout you don't treat her like that..." okay...so her voice carried a bit more threat in the last statement...

[Ceraphine Davis]

Kevala sat there, listening to Mischa as she apologized, her mind running over what to do. She was so torn at the moment and all she could think of was how it was not fair to either one of them...Brushing her tongue over her lower lip, she sighed and finally pushed herself up to stand. She said nothing at first and then with a little lowering of her head she finally spoke up.

"I cannot bring myself to choose right now."

It was that simple. She was not going to do what they both needed for her to do. Instead she was taking option C....It was the only thing she saw as being right right now.

"I care about you both, but I need to get my life straight before I can drag somebody else along with me."

It was the truth. She had not taken any time to get her life straight and until she did there would be nothing but pain for whoever chose to be dragged along by her. It was not fair and it was all that Kev could really think of at the current time. How unfair she had been to both of them....Something had to change and she was going to be the one to make the change.

[Devon]

Devon caught another pair of eyes looking at him, as the other woman apparently decided to apologize for being a bitch. Which was surprising, considering he had been thinking that the bitch should jump into icy water and chill out somewhere far, far away.

At first he was thinking Canada, which he was thinking sounded pretty cruel, but then she went and told him how to treat Kev. She graduated to the Antarctic, slightly less horrifying but a smaller chance she would make it back.

After shooting her a grin, one of those pleasant acknowledgments that could clearly be read as eat shit and die, he turned his suddenly neutral expression to Kevala. What exactly was there to chose from? He didn't even know this person existed, now this?

Devon stepped forward and lowered himself down, crouched next to Kevala. At this point candy tits sitting on her rump only a little bit away didn't exist to him, and her threatening tone ignored along with it. Showing he wasn't the most touchy feeling boyfriend in the world he gave Kev half-hearted slap on the ass.

"You'll figure it out sooner or later, but I'm not leaving 'til then." It wasn't hard for him to say this, anything else be damned. She already did her best to get rid of him once, and she stopped short. So unless she had it in her to see how much closer to death he was willing to go to keep her, Kev was simply stuck with him.

[Mischa Badoer]

(OOC: What's wrong with Canada >.>)

Ok...So he decided not to take the apology like a civilized being. Mischa perked her brow and held back a snarky comment just in time to hear Kev's speech. It hurt a little... kay a lot... that Kev was having a hard time choosing between the two.

Why?

Mischa was there for her for many emotional times. Mischa gave up any connection she had with her dad so she could remain in their relationship, Mischa chose to live her life with Kev even though she had "Sasha" deep inside and Sasha wanted the both of them dead... And all from one silly fight... One fight where Mischa lost her temper for the first time ever... and they separated. It was just like Kev to take the blame... which was wrong... almost as wrong as it was for her to find this guy..who Mischa clued in was a rebound. As much as Mischa didn't like it...they probably only shared a few blissful nights. Her and Kevala had built that and so much more.

She then saw the prick smack her on the ass. Right then she reached for the gun that was no longer there before she just glared at him.

"You'll figure it out sooner or later, but I'm not leaving 'til then."

"Might as well leave... you know... To get a head start."

Yeah..it wasn't too nice of her for saying that.. but yet again it could have been far worse... only thing holding her back from lashing out at the guy was Kev's feelings for him... whether Mischa understood said feelings or not.. they still belonged to Kev. She looked back at Kevala with an apologetic grin. "Take as long as you need, baby. You know I'll be waiting around."

[Ceraphine Davis]

Kevala honestly did not know what to say, to either of them. One was accepting, like she knew she would be, and the other was...well...not so much...

That swat to her rear causing her to tense up just slightly as she offered up a half hearted smile and shook her head...

"No, I need to do this on my own. Too many times I have drug somebody along with me....and I cant keep doing that."

It was the truth and Kev was serious. Something that tended to happen and that most knew as a sign to just let her be for the time being....

Turning back to Mischa she offered up a soft and thankful smile, mouthing the words "thank you" toward her as she nodded her head out of respect for the girl......She may have done much wrong but Kev never lost her respect for Mischa...One of the strongest girls she had ever know...despite her clumsiness.