Where was I? (Sasha)

[Mischa Badoer]

Mischa was at a pub. No she wasn't drinking due to the fact she had a bun in the oven. She was only here because she didn't want to be alone, but even in this crowd she stood alone. This was one of those places Kevala always came to when she had her problems. Mischa was hoping she could get the same treatment, but of course that would be foolish due to the fact she wasn't going to get drunk.

"Why do you look so down?" the bartender, Steve asked. He usually called her when Kevala got into some trouble so her and steve were on first name basis.

"I made a mistake and now I haven't seen Kevala anywhere..."

He shook his head. "That isn't right. You two are meant to be... what did you do?"

"I met a boy..." now Steve looked a little upset. Mischa didn't like it, but she couldn't tell him the whole thing without going into full detail. If she went into full detail then she and Kevala might be called insane. "I..I just want to talk to her even if it is the last time. I just need to get it all straightened out and ask for her forgiveness..."

He didn't look to happy with her. Now in his eyes she was nothing but a cheater..scum. Mischa felt worse than scum. "Just ask her twin sister... She has been coming around here a lot making all sorts of fuss..."

"Allegra? Man, I didn't even know she was in town." Micsha sure had missed a lot.

"Allegra?" he looked a little confused, "Is that her name? Oh boy, hopefully she isn't mad at me for calling her Sasha that whole time."

Mischa paused. It wasn't hard to put those two together. Sasha took over and now she is pretending to be a twin. Great.

"Ah don't worry... She likes the name Sasha so I'm sure she tells people that all the time... Does she come here often?"

[Ceraphine Davis]

Speak of the devil and she shall appear. It was not like Sasha had any clue that Mischa was back in town, nor that she would dare be at a place like this. In her mind, the girl had moved on and it was for the best...it let Sasha have her own life....which is just what she wanted....

Entering the pub she paid no mind to those at the bar, just made her way to her usual seat. She had been coming here enough, mostly out of a habit she did not even realize, and they knew what she drank...It did not usually take long to get her drink....

Wearing a black tank top and a pair of jeans, her long blond hair fell down freely around her as she leaned back and looked up at the ceiling....a brush of her tongue, something else she did out of habit that she did not notice, to her lower lip before her hands would rest upon the table, tapping it lightly as she started to grow impatient. Gah!

Wtf was taking so long!?

That was when her attention turned to the bar, and eyes fell on a familiar face, one which made her growl to herself with anger and disgust. What the hell was that little bitch doing back?

No matter? Kev was just a lost soul inside her mind now...that was it......

Though she felt a slight stir at the sight of Mischa, it was nothing to be concerned about.....No, she was not going to loose this body...Not for anyone....Especially not for this girl....

She merely narrowed her eyes and turned her head away..Perhaps she would just leave her alone? She had found somebody had she not? Sasha had made sure Kev heard it.....though, at the time, it had been like a dream to Kevala...yes.......always fun to fuck with her mind.......Always....

[Mischa Badoer]

"Yeah she tends to... Guess those two girl's love to come here- whoa just in time."

Mischa's attention perked when he gestured over to the table. Mischa turned to the girl sitting there. She was a blonde, but she didn't get to see her face due to the fact she was facing the other way. Mischa looked around a little more to see black hair until she just asked if she was looking at the right table. He nodded and he claimed she was the blonde one.

"Yeah..Last time I saw Good ol' Allegra, she had black hair.. Well.. Talk to you later I'm going to see her..."

Mischa stood and made her way over to the table. She sat down across from her. She was nervous. Kevala had always been stronger than her and Sasha was just a force to be reckoned with. "Can I talk to Kevala?" no proper greetings. The girl didn't deserve it. She was also hoping Sasha was going to let that... though probably not due to the fact she seemed to have perfect control now.

Mischa studied the eyes that she missed all too much... the eyes that even Rikki's could compete. She saw those that little line that separated from what was the eye and that of a contact. She was playing out as her twin...

"On a second thought..I need to talk to you." it was going to be stupid to ask this..."I thought you were going to hurt me, the kids and Kevala...I see you are alive and well?"

[Ceraphine Davis]

OF COURSE!! That girl had to come and take a seat in front of her, first asking to speak to Kev, which again brought a little stir but nothing that Sasha could not completely shut down. No, the girl was broken and Sasha had one...She was about to laugh at the mere thought of letting Kev out....but....something caught her mind and she started to plot...always plot......

But then Mischa decided she wanted to talk to her instead, and Sasha would cross her arms over her chest and lean back. Yes, she was high, but she was not stupid, her eyes watching the other girl suspiciously.

Not until I destroy everything she had....But then, you did that on your own didnt you?"

Now she laughed, a little chuckle as she motioned for her drink...Soon enough it was brought over and she would take a sip, setting it on the table...

"Besides, the twins and you were only a threat when I thought I could not get away from you..Now, I have accomplished it...not to mention...I promised to leave them unharmed..."

She growled to herself the last part..yes, she had bargained with Katie and she hated it...but still it was nothing she could not handle. Eventually she would figure a way out of this......

Besides, there was nothing Mischa could do now, Sasha had convinced Kevala that she was unwanted, and Mischa had helped.....she could not have asked for a better situation than what she was presented.

[Mischa Badoer]

She listened to what Sasha and a pang of guilt hit her when she brought up the situation. So she did know. Great just great. At least the kids were safe from her.

"Sasha...What happened between Rikki and I is strictly between me, him, and Kevala. I need to settle this out with her and not you." she leaned back in her chair staring across the table. Those fake blue eyes getting on her nerve. They weren't the same colour...it wasn't the same Kevala that she wanted. It had been more than a month since she had seen her love and it would appear it might be the last, but Mischa didn't want to give up.

"But I guess you won't grant me that... So I guess I will have to settle with you..." she leaned in and looked her into the eye, hoping Kev would be able to hear what ever was going on. "I didn't go to Venice on Business..." she sighed. "I made amends with my father and told him I was going to carry out the family name. I was going to do it through artificial insemination and not even know who the father was, but he didn't like the idea. Why? Because he didn't trust me getting a donar from someone who could have had a bad genetics... so he suggested Rikki. When you called. I was in a hospital room...I was laying in bed and he was laying in the one next to me. Nothing happened between us." she shrugged. "He had blue eyes... Hoping he will be able to pass them down... It was the closest I could get to your eyes."

She tried not to dwell on the thought of having to raise this kid alone... The intent was to make something for Kev to fight for, but it would seem Kev had lost and Mischa was too late. "I'm pregnant...with our baby..."

[Ceraphine Davis]

She narrowed her eyes as the girl began to speak, not liking where this was going at all, and then out of nowhere came the thing she had not been expecting...Never had she thought that it would come from those lips, and apparently neither had Kevala, for in that instant she shot forward, before even Sasha could gain control of her......

Tears filling her eyes as a seemingly instant tiredness filled her eyes, though the contacts remained, the icy hues could be seen clearly enough through them.......

" I......I thought....that with me..with this....."

She grabbed a strand of her hair to signify Sasha and the whole mess.....

"I thought you..you did not want to...."

It was all she got out before pain the likes of which she had never felt slammed into her head, causing her to fall out of the chair she was seated in as she cried out...grabbing her head....She knew what it was....

Sasha......and she was pissed.......

I will kill that little bitch and that abomination she has inside her. I WILL NOT LOSE!!!

She shook her head, trying to push herself back up...

"M....Mischa pl..please....."

She cried out again as she struggled to maintain control. She needed to keep Mischa and the baby safe...she had to....she could not let that fucking bitch inside her win.....Her hand reaching up and grabbing the table, her drink falling and shattering on the ground..........

Tears streamed down her face, she reached out, grabbing a shard of glass and stabbing it into her leg...The sudden pain shooting through her and forcing back the other for a moment.

"Ou...Our baby?"

She choked out the words as blood poured from her leg.......The glass cutting into her hand now as well from the grip she had on it.......

[Mischa Badoer]

And just like that it would seem the atmosphere changed. She could tell it was Kevala. How could she? The tint in her iris had changed.. seems logic... the contacts were a bit off because of the crimson somewhat mixing with the blue. Not only that, she seemed to be carrying herself differently. And above all..It was just her Kev.

She questioned and Mischa had no words... just was glad she would be able to see Kevala for maybe the last time. Mischa shrugged. "I wanted to try...Wanted something worth fighting for...I wanted something between us."

Then Kevala fell to the floor. Mischa stood quickly and looked down at her. Sasha wanted to come back and that was obvious. Then Kevala stabbed herself in the leg. It was to hold herself back... Obviously Sasha couldn't chase down Mischa if her leg was impaired... But Mischa didn't run. She stared at the pooling blood. Fear struck her hard.

"Ou...Our baby?"

Mischa ran to her side and knelt down. She grabbed the glass and tossed it to the side. Her hand reached down to her leg and and applied pressure to slow the bleeding as her other hand grabbed the nape of Kevala's neck. "Yes... Our baby... And not once had I considered anyone over you. Don't think I could carry on with a new family when Sasha is tearing this one apart. I will take care of the twins...I want you to know that... to know they will be safe along side our new child... They might have to go on with only one parent, but I will let them know you loved them everyday so you will still be with them if not in person." it was a lot to think Mischa wouldn't be able to be with someone.. but after growing so accustomed to Kev and the twins she wouldn't be able to look at someone the same. Her and Kevala had gone through too much for Mischa to just so easily to drop everything and find someone else to love. Just didn't seem possible.

She leaned in and pressed a kiss to the girl's lips. It had been more than a month since she had such connection. "I love you..."

[Ceraphine Davis]

Kevala felt the glass pulled away, felt that touch and the heat of the girls flesh against her own, she heard her words as the tears continued to stream down her face. Those icy hues looked up into the ones of the girl she loved so much as she listened to those words..all the while pain assaulting her as she felt like her head was going to explode....

"You....cannot...have .....her....."

The tone changed for a moment as Sasha broke free, and growled at Mischa, her hand coming up to strike but stopping, as though some one had grabbed her and was holdind her back....

The red so bright now it shone through the contacts as her rage intensified....

Just then, the bartender came from seemingly out of nowhere, since Kev/Sasha had not really been paying attention, grabbing up Mischa and jerking her away from the girl who was on the floor....whomever the hell she was......

He looked at her as though she were insane, and in all rights she was, but the instant he did, he tripped back, and accidentally slammed himself and Mischa into the wall. And in that instant, a single sound made it through all the madness that was currently consuming Kevala's mind....and before Sasha could even think to move Kevala was back, throwing the other personality away as if she was nothing....

Sure she was hurt, but Kev lived for pain, and it did not take her long to get up, growling as she moved and seperated Mischa from the man, placing the girl behind her as her crimson eyes narrowed upon him....

"GET YOUR HANDS OFF HER!!!!"

NOBODY hurt her Mischa.....especially not some low life bartender...eyes slowly starting to fade to black, red swirls spiralling in them despite the contacts.....Her hands trembling as her own rage consumed her...no longer the pain in her mind, no longer the voices in her head, at least not in this moment......

She stepped forward, making the man take a step back and further away from Mischa.....Yes, on the up side, Kevala was back...on the down side, she had lost it...too much stress, too much worry, too much mental anguish, and now this?

He dare touch her fiance? The mother of her child?

Yeah....she was beyond all sense of logic in this moment...

A bigger, more muscled out man now came forward, trying to get to Mischa, of course trying to protect her...but in Kevs mind, in this moment, it was not the case....she thought they wanted to harm her...to take her away from her.....

And that she could not allow.....

Her fist shooting into his face and sending him back before she turned her attention to the bartender once more.

"Stay away from her!"

[Mischa Badoer]

It was quick then when she turned back into Sasha. Mischa had a shred of hope that she was going to be back for good, but it all came crashing down. Sasha lifted her arm to strike at her just until someone stopped her and pulled her away. It was Steve, he was obviously looking out for her. Man, this might have looked bad...Mischa kissing "Kevala's twin sister"... But at this moment, Mischa didn't want to be pulled away from Kev.. She needed to be there for her... So she struggled and in turn made Steve trip. They both banged against a all and she made a default noise to come with it... but just as Kev was... she reacted. Normally Mischa would be happy Kev was now back... but right now she looked like she wanted to kill something. She got this mad when Mischa kept the wound from her arm hidden from her two years back.. but luckily there was no one around. Now she was threatening...

*punch*

And now punching...

"Stay away from her!"

AH SHIT!

Mischa grabbed for Kevala and held her close from behinds. Her right arm was petting the hair on the left side of Kev's head as her left hand held down both arms in a tight embrace. Mischa lips were near her ear.

"Kev..Calm down he was just trying to help." Freaking out at a moment like this couldn't help Kev's situation. Yeah she was happy she was back, but it would suck if she was back then sent to jail or something. "He wasn't hurting me...Come on... lets go home don't do anything stupid... You don't want your kids seeing you behind bars.."

Yes, Steve looked confused. Mischa looked up at him with a scrunched up nose and mouthed the words "I'll explain later" meaning "I will think up a lie and the reasoning why I am having a baby with 'Kevala's twin'"

But right now her goal was to calm Kev down some.

[Ceraphine Davis]

She felt those arms wrap around her, the touch to the side of her head and the whisper against her ear. Still her body trembled with rage as she looked at the one who had hurt Mischa...She wanted him dead.....

Blood.......

Death.......

The words continued to repeat themselves over and over in her mind, but she could not help but start to give into the touch of the girl who held her now......Keeping her eyes on the man for a moment longer, she turned around quickly, wrapping her arms about Mischa and hiding her face against her hair.

Her eyes closed as she breathed in that familiar scent....She said she was okay....She said they had not meant to hurt her........But Kevala had....or at least Sasha had...........

She whimpered, brushing a kiss against the girls neck as she whispered softly.....

"I have missed you ....so much......But it is not safe to be around me....."

Her small hand sliding down the girl's side and coming to rest on her lower abdomen......

Will you let Sasha win? Will you let her destroy Mischa.............and the baby?

Katie was the only one Kevala heard at this moment and it was strange but it was very true....She would rather die than let them be harmed.....A little whimper escaping her once more as she drew in a deep breath......

"You need to go home...You need rest..You have been doing too much since you came home I am certain."

She pulled back enough to brush her lips against Mischa's, her hand stroking over the area in which the baby.....their baby....grew.....A tear sliding down her cheek as she rested her forehead against Mischa's......

"I cannot hurt you....I will not....I love you too much......"

She then, using every bit of strength she had, pulled herself away from the other girl....a limp backwards, putting distance between them as she tried to avoid too much pressure on that wounded leg....

[Mischa Badoer]

Mischa’s words had finally got to Kevala as the girl gave up on Steve and turned around. Kevela buried her face in Mischa’s neck all the while Mischa Cradled Kevala’s small form close. “I missed you too…”

"You need to go home...You need rest..You have been doing too much since you came home I am certain." Mischa had some pause at the words. It was obvious what was just implied; she wanted Mischa to go home by herself.

She looked at the tears down Kev’s cheek as she felt that comforting hand over her abdomen. Mischa started shaking her head “no” softly, but Kevala continued on.

"I cannot hurt you....I will not....I love you too much......" Then next thing Mischa knew… Kev pulled free from Mischa’s grasp. Her arms were still held out as if Kev would have been there as if someone had snatched a baby from a mother’s hand. Mischa stared at the girl that gained distance by taking painful steps back. Mischa’s hands dropped to her side as she stared at Kevala. Again, Mischa shook her head “no” as her own tears started form in her eyes.

“I’m not going home without you,” And just like that Mischa took a few long strides forwards and wrapped her arms around Kevala’s waist. Right now she didn’t care about getting her, she didn’t care about Sasha, she just wanted Kev back and if she couldn’t have her back; she was going to spend ever last second with her… until she tried to get her back again… Mischa won’t give up on getting her Kev back. “I can’t do it without you… I love you and the twins love you. They want you back home. They miss their mommy.” just as Mischa went to burry her face into Kev’s neck she broke. She had a small whimper that escaped her mouth as her voice was pouty due to her current state, “I miss my baby.”

[Ceraphine Davis]

Kevala watched as the girl slowly lowered her arms, her own heart breaking as her mind raced over what she HAD to do. Did she want to be without Mischa? Of course not. She was Kev's entire world, her and the twins.....and...and now......their baby.....

She had to shake her head...she could not help herself, it was just....she had never thought Mischa would want to go through with it given Kev's own mental state, but here she stood, pregnant, with their baby....wanting to make their life together permanent, forever.....something that Kevala had wanted for so long, and yet now it seemed so far from her grasp...

Then out of nowhere Mischa came forward, those tears already starting to slide down her beautiful face and it was like somebody had just stabbed Kev in the heart......Physical pain she could handle, but this...this was too much....

She tried to take another step back but found herself against the bar and unable to move as Mischa wrapped her arms around her....her face hiding against Kev's neck and a whimper slipping forth.......

Her words, pouty, begging.....scared..........It was enough to make Kevala draw in a shakey breath, her hands coming up, resting upon the girls shoulders......

Part of her wished to push her away, to keep her away from the greatest danger she could face, which was herself.....but the other wished to comfort her and make sure that everything was okay.......

Now, given that this was the girl who got rid of every bit of furniture to make sure Mischa did not get hurt, do you honestly think she would be the one to break the girls heart? Pft!

Lowering her head, she reached one hand up, stroking the back of Mischa's head softly as she leaned in to whisper softly into her ear.....

"Shh....calm down baby.....This is not good for the baby....."

Her other hand coming between them to stroke softly over where the baby rested.....her eyes closing as she thought over the situation and the pure happiness she felt inside......Pressing a gentle kiss to the other girl's neck she would sigh softly....defeated......

"I have been lost without my love.....my heart....."

She felt the struggling in her mind, but for now it was nothing compared to calming down Mischa and getting her home....Keeping her and the baby healthy was all Kev could think of at the moment. So.....against her better judment.......

"Shall we go home, so that I may show you how much I have missed having you in my arms?"

Yet deep down she knew, that should another instance like the last occur, she would have to leave...there was no other option..not if she wished to protect them......

[Mischa Badoer]

At first it would have appeared Kevala was trying to avoid this situation, but Mischa knew Kevala didn't truly want to do so. Knowing this made Mischa think of something evil; water works. Yeah, Mischa was sad enough to cry, but she knew that if she did cry Kev would cave.

"Shall we go home, so that I may show you how much I have missed having you in my arms?"

Mischa looked up and into her eyes with a large smile, but still sniffled from crying. "God yes..."

Mischa had a mental note to Sasha being written.

Dear Sasha,

I won! NEANER NEANER NEANER!

Mischa.

Yeah she may not have "won" but for the time being she did and it felt damn good. All it took was artificial insemination! "Let's go..." and quickly she grabbed her hand and tug her along with her.

She seemed to be very impatient... well... IT HAD BEEN MORE THAN A MONTH >.>

Now they were in the parking lot and she lead Kev to her blue Nissan Versa.. good ol' faithful! And Mischa didn't care how Kev got their in the first place...she was driving home with her tonight!

[Ceraphine Davis]

Kevala really did not know what to do as she was tugged along behind Mischa and out of the bar....She was still lost on the information that she was gonna be a mother...again.........her Mischa was pregnant...

Now when Kev had bee pregnant, she got very bitchy very fast and was worried over constantly.....by a guy who yeah....just was not all that into her........or at least it is how it came off at the time.......

Now, Mischa was pregnant, and Kev was an insanely over protective person already.....yyyyyeeeaaah this was gonna be fun!

Shaking her head as she climbed into the car, she really had no objections of being driven home...her leg was hurt after all and yeah, even as they climbed into the car she made sure to rip a bit of her shirt and wrap it about her leg. She did not wanna get blood in the car...again.....so yeah....

Taking a deep breath she turned her attention to the other girl.....a thought hitting her as she raised her brow and growled lightly....

"Are you sure you should be driving? I mean, what if something happens?"

It was usual questions, but at the same time, she could not avoid that nagging fear in the back of her mind.

You idiot! You really think she did not sleep with him? You know what you heard...You know that!

Do not doubt her...you love her, and she you....you will be having a child together.....

She whimpered, and turned her head, leaning back in the seat and looking out the window....it was a habit she had picked up from being around Gabriel. To just stare out the window to avoid the harder thoughts her mind sometimes came up with......

No, she could not allow herself to think that Mischa had done such......maybe she was a fool but she trusted her more than anything........Her small hand, slowly reaching across the center of the car and resting upon the inside of Mischa's thigh...even though her attention never shifted away from the window......

They still had much to talk about, but for now...she would leave it alone....

[Mischa Badoer]

Mischa shrugged as she was driving. She didn't want to think about the situation as being bad enough to not be able to drive.

"We're fine."

She paid attention to the road, turning when need be. She felt Kevala's hand slide to her thigh. Mischa missed her tough and her right hand left the steering wheel to cup Kev's hand before wrapping her fingers around hers now holding it.

They got home finally and Mischa would unlock the door and head into the bathroom. She got out those strectchy cloth wrap things for booboos out and some cleaning shutff to get Kevala all fixed up and proper.

"Sit down.." she demanded Kev, but not meanly...mostly caring. If she complied, Mischa would undo Kev's makeshift bandage then clean it up and rewrap it with the real deal. "All better?" she said with a pouty expression and perked eyebrows. She leaned down and gave it a quick kiss above the bandage. "There kissed it better!" she said standing up.

Looking down at Kev seemed almost as if she had never left..or as if they didn't have the Sasha situation. Looking at Kev made everything a lot better than it was.